I Just Wanted To Tell You...
I was recently asked:
"If you had the chance to tell your ex anything, what would it be???"
"If you had the chance to tell your ex anything, what would it be???"
AND MY RESPONSE...
I forgive you...
For not being who you pretended to be...For not being able to live up to the hype of your representative...For not being what I wanted and needed...For being spiritually and emotionally stunted...For repeatedly disappointing me...For every beautiful lie you told: to both me and yourself...For trying to make me feel like I was less than I am so you could feel like more than you are...For being petty and shallow...For ruining Christmas...For being the best actor I ever met...For not being strong enough for me...For your lack of humility...For your inability to handle and love an equal...For asking me to carry your burdens...For expecting me to wait...For your lack of accountability...For your total lack of character and integrity...For being abrasive, insensitive, and emotionally abusive...For using me...For inviting me into a dirty house before you were even truly making a genuine attempt to be free of your garbage and baggage...For making me your teacher when I wanted to grow with you...For demanding in me a level of impossible perfection and a flawless, reaction free performance in response to your cruelty and selfishness that no feeling being is capable of in the face of such intentional hurt and malice...For coming between me and one of my oldest and dearest friends...For being jealous of my sense of purpose, knowledge of destiny, and my abilty to follow my heart and my dreams while you worked a dead-end job and had no sense of your own life's purpose...For your complete cowardice...For lying with your eyes...For using your words and my vulnerability as a weapon...For your attempts to leave the door open and deny me proper closure...For refusing to face my justified wrath...For running away from every opportunity I had to voice my truth aloud just to spare your own ego and feelings...For always taking the easy way out...For never looking in the mirror...For choosing familiar, convenient and cheap over righteous, challenging and worthy...For disrupting my life...For lacking the courage to fight for me...For feeling sorry for yourself...For playing the victim to anyone who would listen...For posting bad poetry for me after the fact as if I should be honored...For making me HATE "Rocket Love"!...For your inability to communicate honestly and effectively...For apologizing to everyone BUT ME for what you did TO ME...For STILL being too much of a coward to even face me and say "I'm sorry, I was wrong"...For your total disregard for me, right and wrong...For your inability to demonstrate remorse...For wasting my precious time...For usurping my energy...For disrespecting my amazing love...For existing merely to create sadness and chaos in my world...For making this lesson so extraordinarily and unecessarily painful...
I Forgive You For Being...
You.
~A
(That felt good - lol).
For not being who you pretended to be...For not being able to live up to the hype of your representative...For not being what I wanted and needed...For being spiritually and emotionally stunted...For repeatedly disappointing me...For every beautiful lie you told: to both me and yourself...For trying to make me feel like I was less than I am so you could feel like more than you are...For being petty and shallow...For ruining Christmas...For being the best actor I ever met...For not being strong enough for me...For your lack of humility...For your inability to handle and love an equal...For asking me to carry your burdens...For expecting me to wait...For your lack of accountability...For your total lack of character and integrity...For being abrasive, insensitive, and emotionally abusive...For using me...For inviting me into a dirty house before you were even truly making a genuine attempt to be free of your garbage and baggage...For making me your teacher when I wanted to grow with you...For demanding in me a level of impossible perfection and a flawless, reaction free performance in response to your cruelty and selfishness that no feeling being is capable of in the face of such intentional hurt and malice...For coming between me and one of my oldest and dearest friends...For being jealous of my sense of purpose, knowledge of destiny, and my abilty to follow my heart and my dreams while you worked a dead-end job and had no sense of your own life's purpose...For your complete cowardice...For lying with your eyes...For using your words and my vulnerability as a weapon...For your attempts to leave the door open and deny me proper closure...For refusing to face my justified wrath...For running away from every opportunity I had to voice my truth aloud just to spare your own ego and feelings...For always taking the easy way out...For never looking in the mirror...For choosing familiar, convenient and cheap over righteous, challenging and worthy...For disrupting my life...For lacking the courage to fight for me...For feeling sorry for yourself...For playing the victim to anyone who would listen...For posting bad poetry for me after the fact as if I should be honored...For making me HATE "Rocket Love"!...For your inability to communicate honestly and effectively...For apologizing to everyone BUT ME for what you did TO ME...For STILL being too much of a coward to even face me and say "I'm sorry, I was wrong"...For your total disregard for me, right and wrong...For your inability to demonstrate remorse...For wasting my precious time...For usurping my energy...For disrespecting my amazing love...For existing merely to create sadness and chaos in my world...For making this lesson so extraordinarily and unecessarily painful...
I Forgive You For Being...
You.
~A
(That felt good - lol).
I saw this question posed on another site and could not resist the opportunity to respond in the way only I can (lol)...
Any other takers??? Come on! Share your 'love' letter to the ex(s) below!
Any other takers??? Come on! Share your 'love' letter to the ex(s) below!
Writing this has been more fun and therapeutic than I could've imagined...especially because I have grown so much and am in such a healthy and happy place now... This just released a little more of the unforgiveness that held a tiny piece of me back...and is thus rendered powerless in even my subconscious... I know myself all too well, and one thing I know for sure is that I don't let any intentional injury or wrong go until I've had my proper say...and now I have ;)!
I wrote a few of these letters (hey, I do have more than one ex after all...) but I said most of what I wanted to say to the others at the time because they were courageous enough to face me, so this was my favorite!
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