***WRITE!*** (A NYE Prayer🧎🏼‍♀️)

{An Early #HappyNewYear! 🎆}

Write Bridges, Healing, Peace, Joy, Abundance, And Success! Write Growth, Health, Life, Focus, Plans, The Steps Towards Each Goal — Big And Small, Transcendence And Victory! Write Acceptance, Surrender And FORGIVENESS...

Write Climbed Mountains, Conquered Valleys, Opened Doors, Dreams Actualized, Unconditional Love Manifested Or Realized, Write Happy Fulfilling Symbiotic Purpose Filled Relationships, Self Love, Healing, Self Care And Wholeness!

Write About How You're No Longer Holding Onto Or Internalizing Things, People And/Or The Choices And Behaviors, Habits, Routines, Internal Nonsense Like Bitterness, Self Loathing, Etc., Or The Pieces Of Your Past, That No Longer Serve You!

Write About Gratitude DAILY! It Will Save Your LIFE!

Write Deeper Communion With The God Of Your Understanding, Ordered Steps, Divine Purpose And Timing In Everything, Goodness, Kindness,, Righteousness, Justice, And The Consciousness Of Christ.

Write It All With Good And Pure Intentions — Most Importantly, The Intention Of Genuine Pursuit!

Most Of All, Be Open And Trust God To Edit Your Story...

He Has The Final Say...

#AnOmali™#

Butterpillar 🦋

#WriteTheVision ©️

#HappyNewYear 🎁

#SelfLoveIsAFullTimeGig 👑

#WhatBelongsToMeWillFindMe 💫

RHOP — #Triggered

I'ᴍ sᴏ sɪᴄᴋ ᴏғ ᴛʜɪs ɴᴀʀʀᴀᴛɪᴠᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪғ ᴀ ᴡᴏᴍᴀɴ ʜᴀs ᴀ ғᴇᴡ ᴅᴇғᴜɴᴄᴛ ʀᴇʟᴀᴛɪᴏɴsʜɪᴘs ɪᴛ ᴅᴇɴᴏᴛᴇs ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ ɪs sᴏᴍᴇ ᴄʜᴀʀᴀᴄᴛᴇʀ ғᴀɪʟᴜʀᴇ ᴏɴ ʜᴇʀ ᴘᴀʀᴛ ᴏʀ sʜᴇ's ғᴀɪʟɪɴɢ ᴀs ᴀ ᴡᴏᴍᴀɴ. Hᴇʀᴇ's ᴀ ʀᴇᴀʟɪᴛʏ ᴄʜᴇᴄᴋ. Wᴏᴍᴀɴ ᴀʀᴇ NOT ᴅᴇғɪɴᴇᴅ ʙʏ ᴍᴇɴ ᴏʀ ᴛʜᴇ sᴜᴄᴄᴇss ᴏғ ᴀ ʟᴏɴɢᴛᴇʀᴍ ʀᴇʟᴀᴛɪᴏɴsʜɪᴘ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴏɴᴇ. Sᴏᴍᴇ ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ ɢᴇᴛ ᴅɪᴠᴏʀᴄᴇᴅ ᴀғᴛᴇʀ 5, 10...30 ʏᴇᴀʀs, sᴏ, ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇɴ? Hᴏᴡ, Sᴡᴀʏ?

Eᴠᴇʀʏ ᴍᴀɴ ɪs NOT ᴍᴇᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ ᴋᴇᴘᴛ. Lᴇss ᴛʜᴀɴ 1% ᴏғ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘᴏᴘᴜʟᴀᴛɪᴏɴ ᴇɴᴅs ᴜᴘ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴛʜᴇɪʀ ғɪʀsᴛ ᴏʀ ᴇᴠᴇɴ ᴛʜᴇɪʀ 5ᴛʜ ʀᴇʟᴀᴛɪᴏɴsʜɪᴘ ᴘᴀʀᴛɴᴇʀ. Aɴᴅ, MOST ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ SETTLE! Sᴏᴍᴇ ᴏғ ᴜs ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴍᴏʀᴇ ᴛʜᴀɴ ᴏᴛʜᴇʀs ᴀɴᴅ ʀᴇғᴜsᴇ ᴛᴏ sᴇᴛᴛʟᴇ. Aɴᴅ, ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴏɴᴇ ғɪɴᴅs ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴀʀᴇ ʟᴏᴏᴋɪɴɢ ғᴏʀ ᴀɴᴅ ᴀʀᴇ ʀᴇᴀᴅʏ ғᴏʀ ᴀᴛ ᴅɪғғᴇʀᴇɴᴛ ᴛɪᴍᴇs ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇɪʀ ᴊᴏᴜʀɴᴇʏ ᴀɴᴅ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴀɴᴅ/ᴏʀ ɴᴇᴇᴅ ᴇᴠᴏʟᴠᴇs ᴏᴠᴇʀ ᴛɪᴍᴇ ᴀs ʏᴏᴜ ɢʀᴏᴡ ᴀɴᴅ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ... 

Y'ᴀʟʟ ɴᴇᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ sᴛᴏᴘ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴛʜᴀᴛ "sʜᴇ ᴄᴀɴ'ᴛ ᴋᴇᴇᴘ ᴀ ᴍᴀɴ" BS ᴡʜᴇɴ I ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ EVER ʜᴇᴀʀ, "ʜᴇ ᴄᴀɴ'ᴛ ᴋᴇᴇᴘ ᴀ ᴡᴏᴍᴀɴ" ɪɴ ʀᴇɢᴀʀᴅs ᴛᴏ ᴇᴠᴇɴ ᴍᴇɴ ʟɪᴋᴇ Pᴀsᴛᴏʀ Jᴀᴍᴀʟ Bʀʏᴀɴᴛ! Bᴜᴛ, ʏᴏᴜ'ʟʟ ᴘᴇʀsᴇᴄᴜᴛᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴏᴍᴇɴ ᴛʜᴇʏ'ᴠᴇ sᴄʀᴇᴡᴇᴅ ᴏᴠᴇʀ. #Fᴀɪʟ

Sᴏᴍᴇᴛɪᴍᴇs ᴛʜᴇ ᴇɴᴅ ᴏғ ᴀ ʀᴇʟᴀᴛɪᴏɴsʜɪᴘ ɪs ᴀ ᴘᴇʀsᴏɴᴀʟ VICTORY! Eᴠᴇʀʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ɪsɴ'ᴛ ʜᴇᴀʟᴛʜʏ ᴀɴᴅ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏ ᴄᴏᴜᴘʟᴇ ɪsɴ'ᴛ ᴍᴇᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ...

Pᴇʀsᴏɴᴀʟʟʏ sᴘᴇᴀᴋɪɴɢ, I ᴘʀᴏᴍɪsᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ɪғ ʏᴏᴜ ᴛᴀʟᴋ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴏsᴛ ᴏғ ᴍʏ ᴇxᴇs, ʏᴏᴜ'ʟʟ ғɪɴᴅ ᴏᴜᴛ I ʟᴇғᴛ ᴛʜᴇᴍ (ɴᴏᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ᴡᴀʏ ᴀʀᴏᴜɴᴅ) ᴀɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴀʀᴇ STILL ᴄʜᴇᴄᴋɪɴɢ ɪɴ ʀᴇɢᴜʟᴀʀʟʏ ɪɴ ʜᴏᴘᴇs ᴏғ ᴘʟᴀʏɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴇ ʟᴏɴɢ ɢᴀᴍᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴡɪɴ ᴍᴇ ʙᴀᴄᴋ ғʀᴏᴍ ᴀs ғᴀʀ ʙᴀᴄᴋ ᴀs ᴍʏ ᴀᴅᴏʟᴇsᴄᴇɴᴄᴇ. I ᴀᴍ sɪɴɢʟᴇ ʙʏ CHOICE. I ᴋɴᴏᴡ ᴡʜᴀᴛ I ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴀɴᴅ I'ᴠᴇ ʏᴇᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴇɴᴄᴏᴜɴᴛᴇʀ ɪᴛ... Wʜᴇɴ I ᴅᴏ, I ᴡᴏɴ'ᴛ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴛᴏ "ᴋᴇᴇᴘ" ᴀ ᴛʜɪɴɢ. Wᴇ ᴡɪʟʟ ʙᴇ ᴄᴏᴍᴍɪᴛᴛᴇᴅ, ᴇᴏ̨ᴜᴀʟʟʏ, ᴛᴏ ᴇᴀᴄʜ ᴏᴛʜᴇʀ. Iɴ ᴛʜɪs I ᴀᴍ ɴᴏᴛ ᴜɴɪᴏ̨ᴜᴇ. 

Mᴏsᴛ ᴡᴏᴍᴇɴ ᴄᴀɴ "ᴋᴇᴇᴘ ᴀ ᴍᴀɴ". Tʜᴇʀᴇ ᴀʀᴇ sᴏᴍᴇ ᴍᴇɴ ᴡʜᴏ ɴᴇᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ ᴛʜʀᴏᴡɴ ʙᴀᴄᴋ. Nᴏ ᴏɴᴇ ɪs ᴛʀʏɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ "ᴋᴇᴇᴘ ᴀ ᴍᴀɴ" ᴊᴜsᴛ ғᴏʀ ᴛʜᴇ sᴀᴋᴇ ᴏғ ʜᴀᴠɪɴɢ ᴏɴᴇ... Wʜʏ ᴋᴇᴇᴘ ᴀ ɢᴜᴘᴘʏ, ᴀ ɢᴏʟᴅғɪsʜ ᴏʀ ᴇᴠᴇɴ ᴀ sʜᴀʀᴋ ᴡʜᴇɴ ʏᴏᴜ'ʀᴇ ᴀᴄᴛᴜᴀʟʟʏ ғɪsʜɪɴɢ ғᴏʀ ᴀɴᴅ ғɪᴛ ғᴏʀ ᴀ ᴡʜᴀʟᴇ? 

Sʜᴀʟᴏᴍ.

#WᴀɪᴛɪɴɢOɴMʏOᴡɴPᴇʀsᴏɴᴀʟAᴏ̨ᴜᴀᴍᴀɴ 🐋

#SᴇʟғLᴏᴠᴇIsAFᴜʟʟTɪᴍᴇGɪɢ 👑

Scissors ✂️

Written On This Day In 2016

I've Gotten Very Good At Going It Alone And Have Learned Definitively That I Can't Depend On Anyone But God And Myself, So, Please Believe Me When I Tell You I Have No Need To Stay Connected Or Attached To People Who Offer Me Nothing Positive, Bring No Value, Goodness Or Kindness To My Life Or Have No Integrity. I'm In The Season Of Reciprocity And My Cut Off Game, Both On And Offline, Is #Strong 💪🏽:

Bad Friends? Cutting You Off. Shady? Cutting You Off. Flaky? Cutting You Off. Don't Honor Your Word? Cutting You Off. Pretentious? Cutting You Off. Relatives That Don't Act Like Family? Cutting You Off. Are Never There For Me When I Need You? Cutting You Off. Don't Have Good Intentions? Cutting You Off. Disloyal? Cutting You Off. Dishonest? Cutting You Off. Cause Me Intentional Harm In Word Or Deed? Cutting You Off. Project Your Crap Onto Me? Cutting You Off. No Ownership Or Accountability? Cutting You Off. Abusive Or Toxic? Cutting You Off. Passive Aggressive? Cutting You Off. Poor Communicator? Cutting You Off. Not Self Actualized And Working On You And Your Stuff? Cutting You Off. Holding Me Back? Cutting You Off. Let Me Down Consistently? Cutting You Off. 

I No Longer Have The Time Or Energy To Extend Grace For The Same Offenses Over And Over Again In The Name Of Love And History. My Life, My Time, My Peace Are Precious. So Is My Love, Loyalty And Friendship. I'll No Longer Invest Anything Precious In That Which Is Unworthy. I've Had Enough. Going Through This Nightmare Alone (Divorce) In This Unfamiliar City And Having So Few People I've Loved Well For Years Show Up For Me Even Via A Simple Returned Text Or Call Has Changed Something In Me. Permanently. I've Had Enough. If I'm Alone Anyway, I Might As Well Make It Official By Clearing My Space Of Anyone Not Contributing In A Positive Way To My Healing, Growth And Future To Make Room For What And Whoever Should Actually Be There.

If You Can't Show Up For Me When It Matters, You'll No Longer Have Access To Me At Your Convenience Or At All, Especially Once My Light Is Fully Restored. Period. This Goes For People And Entire Organizations. You're Either For Me In Real And Tangible Ways, Or, You Are Against Me. My Life No Longer Has Room For Shades Of Grey. It's All Love. But, I'm Going To Love Me More. I Will Only Carry Forward With Me That And Those Who Spark Joy. If You Don't, Thank You For Your Time, Contributions And The Lessons You Brought, But This Is A Good Goodbye. 

Be Best. ✂️💋

✮...On Saying Goodbye To My Last Living Grandmother...✮

Aʟᴛʜᴏᴜɢʜ I'ᴠᴇ Tʀɪᴇᴅ Nᴏᴛ Tᴏ Gɪᴠᴇ Tʜᴏᴜɢʜᴛs Oғ Tʜɪs Nᴇᴡ Rᴇᴀʟɪᴛʏ Tᴏᴏ Mᴜᴄʜ Eɴᴇʀɢʏ Tʜɪs Wᴇᴇᴋ, Tᴏᴅᴀʏ I Lᴀᴄᴋ Tʜᴇ Aʙɪʟɪᴛʏ Tᴏ Cᴏᴍᴘᴀʀᴛᴍᴇɴᴛᴀʟɪᴢᴇ Mʏ Cᴜʀʀᴇɴᴛ Tʀᴜᴛʜ...

YESTERDAY WE LAID MY BELOVED PATERNAL GRANDMOTHER — OUR MATRIARCH — TO REST. #MᴏᴛʜᴇʀDᴇᴀʀ #Mᴀᴍᴀ 💔

I Aᴛᴛᴇɴᴅᴇᴅ Vɪᴀ Pʜᴏᴛᴏs Aɴᴅ Vɪᴅᴇᴏ Cʟɪᴘs Iɴ As Cʟᴏsᴇ Tᴏ Rᴇᴀʟ Tɪᴍᴇ As Pᴏssɪʙʟᴇ. Iɴ As Cʟᴏsᴇ Tᴏ Rᴇᴀʟ Tɪᴍᴇ As Mʏ Pʀᴏᴄᴇssɪɴɢ Wᴏᴜʟᴅ Aʟʟᴏᴡ...

Tʜɪs Is Wʜᴀᴛ Gᴏᴏᴅʙʏᴇ Lᴏᴏᴋs Lɪᴋᴇ Iɴ Tʜɪs Nᴇᴡ Wᴏʀʟᴅ. Nᴏ Hᴜɢɢɪɴɢ Oʀ Hᴏʟᴅɪɴɢ. Nᴏ Tᴀɴɢɪʙʟᴇ, Pʜʏsɪᴄᴀʟ Pʀᴇsᴇɴᴄᴇ. Lᴏɴᴇʟʏ Aɴᴅ Eᴍᴘᴛʏ Aɴᴅ Uɴʀᴇsᴏʟᴠᴇᴅ. 

I Aᴍ Oɴ Aᴜᴛᴏᴘɪʟᴏᴛ. Mʏ Nᴜᴍʙɴᴇss Aɴᴅ Iᴛ's Oʀɪɢɪɴs As A Cᴏᴘɪɴɢ Mᴇᴄʜᴀɴɪsᴍ Aʀᴇ Nᴏᴛ Lᴏsᴛ Oɴ Mᴇ. I Kɴᴏᴡ Mʏ Eᴍᴏᴛɪᴏɴs Wɪʟʟ Cᴀᴛᴄʜ Uᴘ Wɪᴛʜ Mᴇ. Iɴ Sᴏᴍᴇ Wᴀʏs Tʜᴇʏ Aʟʀᴇᴀᴅʏ Hᴀᴠᴇ Vɪᴀ Mʏ Iɴᴛᴇʀɴᴀʟ Pʀᴏᴄᴇss...Bᴜᴛ, Fʀᴏᴍ A Dɪsᴛᴀɴᴄᴇ. I Aᴍ A Vᴏʏᴇᴜʀ Tᴏ Mʏ Oᴡɴ Pᴀɪɴ. #Dɪsᴄᴏɴɴᴇᴄᴛᴇᴅ

Sᴏ, Fᴏʀ Tᴏᴅᴀʏ, I Wᴏʀsʜɪᴘ. Aɴᴅ, Hᴏᴘᴇ. Aɴᴅ, Mᴏᴠᴇ Fᴏʀᴡᴀʀᴅ Tʜᴇ Oɴʟʏ Wᴀʏ I Kɴᴏᴡ Hᴏᴡ. Fᴏᴄᴜsᴇᴅ Oɴ Aɴ Uɴᴄᴇʀᴛᴀɪɴ Fᴜᴛᴜʀᴇ Wɪᴛʜ Pᴏᴡᴇʀғᴜʟ Dᴇᴛᴇʀᴍɪɴᴀᴛɪᴏɴ Tᴏ Mᴀɴɪғᴇsᴛ Tʜᴇ Dʀᴇᴀᴍs Sʜᴇ Dɪᴅɴ'ᴛ Gᴇᴛ Tᴏ Sᴇᴇ Cᴏᴍᴇ Tᴏ Fʀᴜɪᴛɪᴏɴ Wʜɪʟᴇ Hᴇʀᴇ Oɴ Eᴀʀᴛʜ... Kɴᴏᴡɪɴɢ Tʜᴀᴛ Mʏ Sᴛʀᴇɴɢᴛʜ — Tʜᴀᴛ Wɪʟʟғᴜʟ, Oʙsᴛɪɴᴀᴛᴇ Cᴏᴜʀᴀɢᴇ Aɴᴅ Dᴇғɪᴀɴᴄᴇ Dʀᴇssᴇᴅ Iɴ Qᴜɪᴄᴋ Wɪᴛ, A Rᴀᴢᴏʀ Sʜᴀʀᴘ Tʀᴜᴛʜ Tᴇʟʟɪɴɢ Tᴏɴɢᴜᴇ, Aɴᴅ A Wʀʏ Sᴍɪʟᴇ — I Gᴏᴛ Tʜᴀᴛ Fʀᴏᴍ Mʏ Mᴀᴍᴀ. 💪🏽🙏🏼💙

#𝓐𝓷𝓞𝓶𝓪𝓵𝓲™

#𝑩𝒖𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒑𝒊𝒍𝒍𝒂𝒓 🦋

#𝕸𝔢𝔱𝔞𝕮𝔬𝔰𝔱𝔞𝔩 🔥

#Mⷨᴀͣɴɪͥғᴇͤs͛ᴛⷮɪͥɴɢ 🔮

#𝐒ₑₗ𝐟𝐋ₒᵥₑ𝐈ₛₐ𝐅ᵤₗₗ𝐓ᵢₘₑ𝐆ᵢ𝐠 👑

#ɢₒᴅᴅᵣₑₐₘₛₜₕₑᵦᵢɢɢₑᵣᴅᵣₑₐₘ ⭐

#𝓘𝓐𝓶𝓓𝓲𝓿𝓲𝓷𝓮𝓕𝓮𝓶𝓲𝓷𝓲𝓷𝓮 ♀️

#𝐼𝐶𝑜𝑛𝑡𝑎𝑖𝑛𝑀𝑢𝑙𝑡𝑖𝑡𝑢𝑑𝑒𝑠 ⚛️ 

#𝑈𝑛𝑖𝑐𝑜𝑟𝑛𝑆𝑒𝑒𝑘𝑠𝑆𝑎𝑚𝑒 🦄

#IKɴᴏᴡMʏWᴏʀᴛʜ 💎

#𝔐𝔶𝔏𝔬𝔳𝔢ℑ𝔰𝔄𝔫𝔒𝔠𝔢𝔞𝔫 🌊

#𝐿𝑜𝑣𝑒𝐼𝑠𝐴𝐶ℎ𝑜𝑖𝑐𝑒‼️ 

#𝑆𝑝𝑖𝑟𝑖𝑡𝑢𝑎𝑙𝐺𝑆𝑝𝑜𝑡 🎯

#𝑆𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑠𝑓𝑦𝑀𝑦𝑆𝑜𝑢𝑙 🧩

#𝑇ℎ𝑒𝑆𝑡𝑎𝑛𝑑𝑎𝑟𝑑 🏆

#𝑇ℎ𝑒𝑊𝑎𝑖𝑡 🔜

#𝑇ℎ𝑒𝑂𝑛𝑒 💍

#QᴜᴇᴇɴTʜɪɴɢs 🏰

#𝑵ᴇᴠᴇʀ𝑺ᴇᴛᴛʟᴇ ✊🏽

#LᴀᴛᴇTᴏTʜᴇPᴀʀᴛʏBᴇʟʟᴇOғTʜᴇBᴀʟʟ 🩰

#TʀᴜᴇGʀᴇᴀᴛɴᴇssDᴏᴇsNᴏᴛFᴇᴀʀTɪᴍᴇ ⏳

#YᴏᴜʀGɪғᴛsWɪʟʟMᴀᴋᴇRᴏᴏᴍFᴏʀYᴏᴜ 🎁

#IғYᴏᴜᴠᴇCᴏᴜɴᴛᴇᴅMᴇOᴜᴛKᴇᴇᴘCᴏᴜɴᴛɪɴɢ 🔝

And, I Wish I Could Rain...

Over 10k Have Died In Italy. Spain Is Averaging 1k Deaths A Day. A DAY! The US Didn't Listen To Italian Experts A Month Ago And We Are Now Well Past 120k Confirmed Cases And Rising. Our Federal Government Is Completely Incompetent And Unprepared With A Malignent Narcissist At The Helm Singlehandedly Murdering His Followers With His Careless Tongue.

People Are Dying. DYING. Full Stop.

The Empath In Me Is Currently Greater Than The Fear In Me. As Is My Righteous Anger. I Cannot Begin To Imagine The Magnitude And Horror Of These Losses. Over 30k Worldwide With No Stop In Sight Because Of Human Ignorance And Arrogance And Horrific Governments. And, I Don't Know A Single Empath Who Doesn't Have An Anxiety Disorder Of Some Sort, So There's Also That. This Is A Nightmare Of Unimagined Proportions And I Think So Many Still Have Their Heads Up Their 🤬🤬🤬.

"Can't You See The Clouds Gathering?".

I'm Still Grateful For Shelter And Provision And Health. But, I Am Also Sad And Grieving The Tremendous Loss Of Life And The Reality That It Will Be Exponentially Worse Before This Is All Over. What Is Abundantly Clear To Me Is That Life And The World Will Never Be The Same After This. Because This Virus Marks A Before And After...

Today It Is Storming And Rainy And I Feel Just Like The Skies — Dark, Heavy, Tempestuous, And Wishing I Could Wash It All Away...😢

#Coronavirus #Covid19 

Romanticism And The Ghosts Of Toxic Relationships Past...

Yᴏᴜ Dᴏ Yᴏᴜʀsᴇʟғ Nᴏ Fᴀᴠᴏʀs Bʏ Rᴏᴍᴀɴᴛɪᴄɪᴢɪɴɢ Yᴏᴜʀ Rᴇʟᴀᴛɪᴏɴsʜɪᴘ Hɪsᴛᴏʀʏ Aɴᴅ Pʀᴇᴛᴇɴᴅɪɴɢ Aʟʟ Oғ Tʜᴏsᴇ Rᴇᴅ Fʟᴀɢs Yᴏᴜ Mɪssᴇᴅ, Oᴠᴇʀʟᴏᴏᴋᴇᴅ, Oʀ Sɪᴍᴘʟʏ Pʀᴇᴛᴇɴᴅᴇᴅ Nᴏᴛ Tᴏ Sᴇᴇ Sɪᴍᴘʟʏ Dɪᴅɴ'ᴛ Exɪsᴛ. 

Sᴏᴍᴇᴛɪᴍᴇs Tʜᴇ Rᴇᴀʟ Rᴇᴀsᴏɴ Yᴏᴜ Cᴀɴ'ᴛ Gᴇᴛ Oᴠᴇʀ Aɴ Ex Isɴ'ᴛ Bᴇᴄᴀᴜsᴇ Iᴛ Oʀ Tʜᴇʏ Wᴇʀᴇ Sᴏ Gʀᴇᴀᴛ. Iᴛ's Bᴇᴄᴀᴜsᴇ Yᴏᴜ Aʀᴇ Sᴛɪʟʟ Mᴏʀᴇ Aᴛᴛᴀᴄʜᴇᴅ Tᴏ Tʜᴇ Iᴅᴇᴀ Oғ Wʜᴏ (Yᴏᴜ Tʜᴏᴜɢʜᴛ) Tʜᴇʏ Wᴇʀᴇ (Tʜᴇ Rᴇᴘʀᴇsᴇɴᴛᴀᴛɪᴠᴇ), Tʜᴀɴ Wʜᴏ Tʜᴀᴛ Pᴇʀsᴏɴ Aᴄᴛᴜᴀʟʟʏ WAS, IS Aɴᴅ Hᴀs Pʀᴏᴠᴇɴ Tʜᴇᴍsᴇʟᴠᴇs Tᴏ Bᴇ Oᴠᴇʀ Aɴᴅ Oᴠᴇʀ Aɢᴀɪɴ, Aɴᴅ, Aᴛ Yᴏᴜʀ Exᴘᴇɴsᴇ. Yᴏᴜ Aʀᴇ Mᴏʀᴇ Aᴛᴛᴀᴄʜᴇᴅ Tᴏ Wʜᴀᴛ Yᴏᴜ Tʜɪɴᴋ/THOUGHT Yᴏᴜ Sʜᴀʀᴇᴅ (Wɪᴛʜ Tʜᴇᴍ) Tʜᴀɴ Tᴏ Tʜᴇ Rᴇᴀʟɪᴛʏ Yᴏᴜ Aᴄᴛᴜᴀʟʟʏ Lɪᴠᴇᴅ Tʜʀᴏᴜɢʜ... Yᴏᴜʀ Eɢᴏ Wᴏɴ'ᴛ Lᴇᴛ Yᴏᴜ Aᴄᴄᴇᴘᴛ Tʜᴀᴛ Yᴏᴜ Mɪss A Fᴇᴇʟɪɴɢ, Aɴ Iᴅᴇᴀ, A Fᴀɴᴛᴀsʏ Mᴏʀᴇ Tʜᴀɴ Yᴏᴜ Mɪss A Pᴇʀsᴏɴ...#Rᴏᴍᴀɴᴛɪᴄɪsᴍ

Sᴏᴍᴇᴛɪᴍᴇs Wᴇ Nᴇᴇᴅ Tᴏ Sᴛᴇᴘ Bᴀᴄᴋ Aɴᴅ Sᴇᴇ Aɴ Uɢʟʏ Tʜɪɴɢ Iɴ Oᴜʀ Hɪsᴛᴏʀʏ Fᴏʀ Wʜᴀᴛ Iᴛ Rᴇᴀʟʟʏ Is Bᴇғᴏʀᴇ Wᴇ Mɪss Oᴜᴛ Oɴ Aʟʟ Tʜᴇ Aᴍᴀᴢɪɴɢ Bᴇᴀᴜᴛʏ Iɴ Oᴜʀ Fᴜᴛᴜʀᴇ... Sᴛᴏᴘ Sᴇᴛᴛʟɪɴɢ Fᴏʀ Pᴇʀᴍɪssɪᴠᴇ Wʜᴇɴ Yᴏᴜ Cᴏᴜʟᴅ Hᴀᴠᴇ Pᴇʀғᴇᴄᴛ... Gʀɪᴇᴠᴇ Aɴᴅ MOVE ON. 

Iᴛ's Aᴋɪɴ Tᴏ Pᴜᴛᴛɪɴɢ Hᴀɴᴅᴄᴜғғs Oɴ Gᴏᴅ. Oᴜʀ Aᴄᴛɪᴏɴs, Lᴀᴄᴋ Oғ Fᴀɪᴛʜ Iɴ Mᴇʀᴇ Pᴏssɪʙɪʟɪᴛʏ, Aɴᴅ CHOICE Tᴏ Sᴛᴀʏ Sᴛᴜᴄᴋ Hᴀs Eᴠᴇʀʏᴛʜɪɴɢ Tᴏ Dᴏ Wɪᴛʜ Us. Iᴛ's Lɪᴋᴇ Kɴᴏᴡɪɴɢ Tʜᴇʀᴇ Aʀᴇ 8 Bɪʟʟɪᴏɴ Pᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ Oɴ Tʜᴇ Pʟᴀɴᴇᴛ, Bᴜᴛ, Sᴛɪʟʟ Sᴜʙᴄᴏɴsᴄɪᴏᴜsʟʏ Bᴇʟɪᴇᴠɪɴɢ Tʜᴀᴛ Tʜᴇ Nᴏᴡ Dᴇғᴜɴᴄᴛ, Tᴏxɪᴄ Dʏsғᴜɴᴄᴛɪᴏɴᴀʟ Rᴇʟᴀᴛɪᴏɴsʜɪᴘ Fʀᴏᴍ Oᴜʀ Pᴀsᴛ Wᴇ Aʀᴇ Sᴛɪʟʟ Cʟᴜᴛᴄʜɪɴɢ Oɴᴛᴏ Tʜᴇ Mᴇᴍᴏʀʏ Oғ Fᴏʀ Dᴇᴀʀ Lɪғᴇ (As Iᴛ Rᴏʙs Us Oғ Eɴᴇʀɢʏ, Lɪғᴇ, Hᴏᴘᴇ Aɴᴅ Oᴜʀ Fᴜᴛᴜʀᴇ) Is As Gᴏᴏᴅ As Iᴛ Gᴇᴛs Bᴇᴄᴀᴜsᴇ Iᴛ's REPRESENTATIVE Fᴇʟᴛ Sᴏ Gᴏᴏᴅ Fᴏʀ A SEASON. As Iғ Gᴏᴅ Cᴏᴜʟᴅɴ'ᴛ Dᴏ Aɴʏ Bᴇᴛᴛᴇʀ... As Iғ Gᴏᴅ Sᴇɴᴅs Cᴏᴜɴᴛᴇʀғᴇɪᴛs Oʀ Uɴғɪɴɪsʜᴇᴅ Wᴏʀᴋ Fᴏʀ Us Tᴏ Cᴏᴍᴘʟᴇᴛᴇ Fᴏʀ Hɪᴍ...

NO! Iᴛ Wᴀs Jᴜsᴛ As Gᴏᴏᴅ As Yᴏᴜ'ᴠᴇ Gᴏᴛᴛᴇɴ. Aᴄᴄᴇᴘᴛᴇᴅ. Cᴏᴜʟᴅ Hᴀɴᴅʟᴇ. Wᴇʀᴇ Rᴇᴀᴅʏ Fᴏʀ. Wᴇʀᴇ PREPARED Fᴏʀ... Aɴᴅ, Iᴛ Wᴀsɴ'ᴛ Eᴠᴇɴ Rᴇᴀʟ! Bᴇᴄᴀᴜsᴇ A Lɪᴇ Cᴀɴ Nᴇᴠᴇʀ Bᴇ Rᴇᴀʟ Aɴᴅ A Rᴇᴘʀᴇsᴇɴᴛᴀᴛɪᴠᴇ's Pᴇʀғᴏʀᴍᴀɴᴄᴇ — Eᴠᴇɴ Aɴ Exᴛᴇɴᴅᴇᴅ, Osᴄᴀʀ Wᴏʀᴛʜʏ Oɴᴇ — Cᴀɴ Nᴇᴠᴇʀ Bᴇ Tʜᴇ Tʀᴜᴛʜ. Iᴛ's A Fᴀʟsᴇ Nᴀʀʀᴀᴛɪᴠᴇ. 

Hᴏᴡ Cᴏᴜʟᴅ Yᴏᴜ Hᴀᴠᴇ Bᴜɪʟᴛ Sᴏᴍᴇᴛʜɪɴɢ Rᴇᴀʟ Wɪᴛʜ Oʀ Oɴ A Fᴀᴄᴀᴅᴇ? Sᴏᴍᴇᴛɪᴍᴇs Iᴛ Jᴜsᴛ Is Wʜᴀᴛ Iᴛ Is. 

Gʀᴇᴀᴛᴇʀ Cᴀɴ'ᴛ Cᴏᴍᴇ Bᴇᴄᴀᴜsᴇ Yᴏᴜ Wᴏɴ'ᴛ Mᴀᴋᴇ Rᴏᴏᴍ Fᴏʀ Iᴛ. Bᴇᴄᴀᴜsᴇ Yᴏᴜ Sᴛɪʟʟ Bᴇʟɪᴇᴠᴇ Iɴ A Fɪɢᴍᴇɴᴛ Oғ Yᴏᴜʀ Iᴍᴀɢɪɴᴀᴛɪᴏɴ. Bᴇᴄᴀᴜsᴇ Rᴇᴀʟ Wɪʟʟ Rᴇᴏ̨ᴜɪʀᴇ Mᴏʀᴇ Oғ Yᴏᴜ Tʜᴀɴ Tʜᴇ Cᴏᴜɴᴛᴇʀғᴇɪᴛ Eᴠᴇʀ Dɪᴅ. Eᴠᴇɴ Bᴇғᴏʀᴇ Iᴛ Aʀʀɪᴠᴇs...

Dᴏ. Tʜᴇ. Wᴏʀᴋ. 

Lᴇᴛ. Iᴛ. Gᴏ.

Lᴇᴛ. Iᴛ. Dɪᴇ.

#Cʜᴏᴏsᴇ #LIVE

(Oʀ, Sᴛᴀʏ Sᴛᴜᴄᴋ)

#TʜᴇWᴀɪᴛ #TʜᴇWᴏʀᴋ #TʜᴇLᴇssᴏɴs #TʜᴇPʀᴏᴄᴇss #Bᴜᴛᴛᴇʀᴘɪʟʟᴀʀ 🦋

Abyss (Resignation/The Temp/Better Than)

I'm always going to be the girl
Who slipped through the cracks
Of your brokenness

Only to occupy the emptiness
Left behind
To keep you from feeling
It's vacant sting

Never to be enough
Loved enough
Seen enough
Cherished enough
Or, leave a hole
Of my own
In my inevitable absence...

Never To Be The Dream.
The idea.
The standard.
Above all others —
No matter how extraordinary
Worthy
Deserving
I might be...
Am.
Or,
The love of your life.
The one who would
Or, even could
Inspire you
To one day boldly proclaim
"I've never loved any woman
The way that I
Love you!"
Not your everything
Or, even first.

Only The Shallow Water
That lines the abyss
That was once
Your heart.

For, that space...
That space will always
Belong to another.

Less worthy. Less true.
Less pure.

Less ME.

But, you don't want (SEE) me.
Not really.
Or, you'd be, things would be
This would be...
Different.

So, I...

And, I...

I am only here
To occupy
The void
Until I am left
With one of my own...


—AnOmali™