❞WE...❞ (Transcendental)

None have ever loved as we...

If ever two have loved as we, 

We were they—in lives past.
In worlds past.
In past, present and future tense.

We are.

Love infinite...

For My One... (Only One)

My One

As the moon recognizes the passing hand of the sun
I saw you pass and recognized you as
The one, MY one
Meaning more than half the day spent
Memorizing the nape of your neck
Tonguing down trails
And back up to vocal chords that murmur:
"Don't stop, Don't stop"
We fit
You are my one
My perfect one
My single most wanted
Hips, ass and toes,
Lips, ears and nose
To be exposed
On top of this face of
Smiling grace
That dislikes the taste of tens
And only has appetite for the likes
Of my one
You're my one,
My one
Please be my only one

- Saul Williams -

I'D GIVE UP ICE CREAM FOR YOU...🍦🍨

❞Cᴏᴠᴇɴᴀɴᴛ ʀᴇʟᴀᴛɪᴏɴsʜɪᴘ ʙᴇɢɪɴs ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴀ “ɢᴇɴᴇʀᴏᴜs sᴏᴜʟ” ᴀᴛᴛɪᴛᴜᴅᴇ. 

Tʜᴇ ɢᴇɴᴇʀᴏᴜs sᴏᴜʟ ɢɪᴠᴇs ɴᴏᴛ ᴏɴʟʏ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ɪs ᴠᴀʟᴜᴀʙʟᴇ ᴀɴᴅ sᴜɪᴛᴀʙʟᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ʀᴇʟᴀᴛɪᴏɴsʜɪᴘ, ʙᴜᴛ ᴀʟsᴏ ᴀsᴋs ᴡʜᴀᴛ ɪs ʜᴏɴᴏʀᴀʙʟᴇ.

A “ɢᴇɴᴇʀᴏᴜs sᴏᴜʟ” ᴀᴛᴛɪᴛᴜᴅᴇ ᴄᴀᴜsᴇs ʙᴏᴛʜ ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴘᴏᴜʀ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴀғғɪʀᴍᴀᴛɪᴏɴ, ᴇɴᴄᴏᴜʀᴀɢᴇᴍᴇɴᴛ, ᴀɴᴅ ᴡᴏʀᴅs ᴏғ ɢʀᴇᴀᴛɴᴇss. Iᴛ ᴏ̨ᴜɪᴄᴋʟʏ ᴘʀᴏᴍᴏᴛᴇs ᴛʜᴇ ᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ᴘᴇʀsᴏɴ ᴏᴠᴇʀ sᴇʟғ.

Aʟʟ ʀᴇʟᴀᴛɪᴏɴsʜɪᴘs ɢʀᴏᴡ ᴡʜᴇɴ ᴛʜᴇ “ɢᴇɴᴇʀᴏᴜs sᴏᴜʟ” ᴀᴛᴛɪᴛᴜᴅᴇ ɪs ᴘʀᴇsᴇɴᴛ.❞ — Jᴀsᴏɴ Oᴡᴇɴs

💗💗💗💓💓💓💘💘💘💯

❞𝐼'𝑑 𝐺𝑖𝑣𝑒 𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝑀𝑦 𝐻𝑎𝑝𝑝𝑦 𝐴𝑛𝑑 𝑇𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑌𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝐵𝑙𝑢𝑒𝑠...❞

#Winning

After Several Years Of Disappointments, Setbacks, Heartbreaks And Horrors (This Past 12 Months Having Been The Most Difficult Test Of All)--I Am Finally Firmly On The Path To Having And Being Everything God Predestined For Me And My Life With Certainty... I'm On My Way To The Fulfillment Of Prophecies Spoken Over My Life All Of My Life (Even Before My Literal Backwards Exodus From My Mother's Swollen Womb); To The Realizing Of Dreams, The Blowing Of Minds, The Silencing Of Haters, And, The Sighting Of The Sweetest Revenge By So Many Who Inflicted Upon Me Intentional Hurt And Harm: Success.

And, While This Is Amazingly Validating, Exciting, Gratifying, Fulfilling And Affirming--Today, What Is Pressing Closest To The Surface Of My Soul Is How Much I Wish My Sister...My Father, My Grandmom, My Aunt, My First Cousins...Were Still Here-On Earth-To See Me "Make It"... And, For Some Of These To Maybe, Finally, Even, Truly SEE Me...For My Impending Success To Make Me Visible; Comprehended, In A Way My Love, Loyalty, Longing And Hoop Jumping Efforts For Family-For Connection, And My Mere Existence, Never Seemed To.

I Miss My Sister... I. Miss. My. Sister. Grief Is Such A Funny, Unpredictable Thing. Life Is A Sphere Of Dichotomies. Never All One Thing Or The Other. Always A Blurred Mix Of Ironies And Opposites All At Once... Even Within Us. Even When We Win.

#Winning... But...

#Munchie

Unrequited...

God made me promises about you before I ever knew your name.

God gave me visions of you; who you'd be, what your soul, your character, your nature would look like, before I'd ever seen your face.

So, it never occurred to me that God gave me you before He ever gave me those things by which I would judge and recognize you...

Imagine a broken girl meeting her predestined soul mate as a child, before she had any concept of what a Godly husband or even love itself was really supposed to look like...

"How would you think I'd recognize something that's never been mine...?"

Imagine all the reasons, I didn't, couldn't have known, that it was you. 

That it was always you...

Until now.

Until it was too late...

Old Friends, Foes, And Frenemies...

I Just Ended A Call With The Person Who Represents, Perhaps, One Of The Worst Heartbreaks Of My Life... My Former Best Friend Of Over 20 Years...

No Romantic Split Hurts Like Breaking Up With A Close Friend You've Known Your Entire Life From Early Childhood, Shared Everything With, And Have Incomparable History With. It's True What They Say - You Can't Make A New Old Friend. But, Sometimes As Much As You Love And Miss Someone, Because Of That History, They Are A Luxury Your Heart And Emotions Can No Longer Afford--To Trust, Invest In, Or Depend On... Because You Miss Who They Once Were, Not Who They've Become...

We Were Closer Than Sisters, It's Been Over 8 Years Since We've Spoken, And I Expected Not To Feel Anything Because So Much Time Has Passed, And I Made The Choice To Sever All Ties... Surprise. The Joke Was On Me. Because, That Level Of Effortless Familiarity With Someone Who In Many Ways Is Now A Complete Stranger Hurts Like Hell.

She Was So Happy To Hear My Voice. Giddy, Even. She'd Been On My Mind, Because She Had Run Into My Mom At A Convention And Passed Her Number Through Her To Me Months Earlier. The Amount Of Time It Took Me To Deliberate. Smart. I Guess She Still Knew Me Well Enough To Know Not To Call Even Though My Number Never Changed. I Was Clear On Our Finality. I Am Stern In My Resolve When I Make A Final Decision. I'm A Taurus. I've Always Been...

She Wants To Stay In Touch... Wants To Call And Text Sometimes. She's Clearly Looking For Reconnection. She Was Warm. Vulnerable. Open. I Was As Cold As Ice. Not Because I'm Unfeeling--But Because I Feel Entirely Too Much. There Is Too Much Left Unsaid. Still. Too Much That Was Never Said Even When I Uttered Those Fateful Words Just Before Her Wedding, "Let's Just Not Do This Anymore. You're Not My Friend And You Haven't Been For A Long Time, So Let's Stop Pretending"... It Was The Last Time We Ever Spoke--Until Today.

To Be Clear, It Was No Petty Breakup. It Had Been Building And Festering Inside Of My Heart For Years... Starting With The Day, 10 Years Earlier, When My "Best Friend" Missed My Father's Funeral. My Father Who Had Been Murdered In The Church He Pastored By A Serial Killer Named Juan Covington. That's Just A Snippet From The Highlight Reel Of Selfishness And A Gross Lack In Reciprocity (Though, To Be Clear, Was The Greatest Offense Of All--An Offense That I Swallowed, Accepted Shallow Excuses For, And Moved On From Like Nothing Was Wrong, But Never Fully Rebounded From... A Blunder Of Youth...).

There Are Some Things You Never Forget. And, Forgiveness Feels Hollow When There's Never Been Proper Communique Or Contrition About The Events That Served As Scissors To Cut The Ties That Bound... It's Always Water Under The Bridge When Time Has Gone By For The Offender. Not So Much For The Offended... To Her, The Past Is The Past, So Let's Just Move On From Here And Never Discuss It Honestly, Gain Clarity, Offer Apologies, Etc...

Tell That To My Heart...

I Need To Share Everything That Hurt Me. I Need To Be Understood. I Need Responsibility Taken, And Apologies Offered, Otherwise What Common Ground Could We Ever Have Again With A Tug-of-war Brewing Just Beneath My Surface Every Time We Were To Speak? What Authentic Healing Or Relationship Could Ever Come Out Of Treading Lightly Around The Truth? That Goes Against My Very Nature. It's The Very Reason I Have No Relationship With My Delusional, Oldest Biological Sister. I Can't Live In A Fantasy World Of Fractures, Scars And Gushing Wounds And Pretend They Aren't Bleeding All Over The Floor. I Can't Do Shallow. I Can't Put A Bandaid On Cancer... You Either Kill Cancer Or You Cut It Out... Otherwise, Cancer Kills Everything Around It... Then, You.

So, She Wants To Slowly Attempt To Rebuild Our Friendship--Or, Something Of The Like. She Asked If It Would Be OK If She Kept In Touch... I Realize, In Retrospect, I Sound Like A Monster In This Conversation. I Wasn't. I'm Not. I'm Just Not Emotionally Available To Her, And Thankfully, She Still Knows Me Well Enough To Perceive And Respect That.

She Wants To Be A Part Of My Life. I Think, After Losing My Bio Sister Last Year, Who I Wasn't Nearly As Close To Growing Up, I Just Needed Closure... I Don't Think My Heart Can Risk Anything More. I Don't Think I Have The Strength To Utter The Three Most Basic Words That Must Be Said Because I Think They Will Fall On Deaf Ears...: "You Hurt Me".

No One Can Hurt You Like A Sister/Best/Old Friend... And, I'm Just Not Ready, Or Willing, Or Maybe I'm Just Too Damn Stubborn To Tear Down These Walls And Try Again...💔 I Don't Even Know How... Where Would I Even Begin? I've Always Been Of The Mindset That If You Have To Explain And Justify To Someone How And Why They Hurt You, Then What Is Even The Point? Because, It Is Unlikely They Will Even Understand And You'll Be Left Worse Off Than Before The Attempt Was Made. No, That's Historically Where I Exit Stage Left, For Better Or For Worse. For Safety. And, For Sanity. Even With Family.

Part Of Me Wishes I Was...Open--That I Could Will Myself; My Heart Open. But, I Can Not. With All Of The Shared History, All Of The Unspoken Pain And Contention Of Wounds That Were Left To Fester Too Long In The Emotional Cowardice And Inability To Be Vulnerable Of My Twenties... It Isn't Water Under The Bridge. It's A Gaping Hole In My Heart, And It Just Hurts Too Much To Even Try... I'm Just Not Ready.

I Guess I Just Needed To Say This Out Loud To Whomever Would Listen (Read) Without Judgement... Can Anyone Relate? 💔

On Kim Burrell And The Misrepresentation Of Christians Everywhere By Fundamentalists And The Right (Wrong)...

(This Is Being Copied From A Post/Rant Made On My Facebook Page That Accidentally Turned Into A Blog...)

I Wᴀsɴ'ᴛ Gᴏɪɴɢ Tᴏ Aᴅᴅʀᴇss Tʜɪs Aɢᴀɪɴ, Aɴᴅ I Wᴀs Vᴇʀʏ Gʀᴀᴄᴇғᴜʟ Iɴ Mʏ Oɴʟʏ Aᴅᴅʀᴇss Eᴀʀʟɪᴇʀ Tʜɪs Wᴇᴇᴋ... HOWEVER, I'ᴍ Aɴɢʀʏ Nᴏᴡ! Aɴᴅ, I'ᴍ Tᴏᴏ Sɪᴄᴋ Aɴᴅ Exʜᴀᴜsᴛᴇᴅ Tᴏ Iɴᴛᴇʀɴᴀʟɪᴢᴇ Iᴛ Aɴᴅ Dᴀᴍᴀɢᴇ Mʏsᴇʟғ Aɴʏ Fᴜʀᴛʜᴇʀ--I NEED TO GO TO SLEEP, Sᴏ, Tᴏ Tʜᴀᴛ Eɴᴅ, I Nᴇᴇᴅ Tᴏ Gᴇᴛ Iᴛ Oᴜᴛ. Hᴇʀᴇ Gᴏᴇs...:

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SERIOUSLY???

Tʜɪs ***KIM BURRELL*** Dᴇʙᴀᴄʟᴇ Is Dᴏɪɴɢ As Mᴜᴄʜ Tᴏ Exᴘᴏsᴇ Mʏ Hᴀᴛᴇғᴜʟ HOMOPHOBIC Sᴏ-ᴄᴀʟʟᴇᴅ "CHRISTIAN" Fʀɪᴇɴᴅs As Tʜᴇ ***TRUMP ELECTION*** Dɪᴅ Tᴏ Exᴘᴏsᴇ Mʏ RACIST Aɴᴅ IGNORANT "WHITE FRIENDS" Aɴᴅ Tʀᴜʟʏ Sᴛᴜᴘɪᴅ, Sᴇʟғ Lᴏᴀᴛʜɪɴɢ Fʀɪᴇɴᴅs Oғ Cᴏʟᴏʀ!!!

Tʜɪs Is Nᴏᴛ Eᴠᴇɴ Aʙᴏᴜᴛ Kɪᴍ Aɴʏᴍᴏʀᴇ! Iᴛ's Aʙᴏᴜᴛ Tʜᴇ Usᴇ Oғ Hᴇʀ Sᴇɴᴛɪᴍᴇɴᴛs As A Dɪᴠɪsɪᴠᴇ Tᴏᴏʟ Oғ Oᴘᴘʀᴇssɪᴏɴ Tᴏ Sᴘᴇᴡ Hᴀᴛᴇ Aʟʟ Oᴠᴇʀ Fᴀᴄᴇʙᴏᴏᴋ! I'ᴍ Sᴇʀɪᴏᴜsʟʏ Aʙᴏᴜᴛ Tᴏ Gᴏ Oɴ Aɴᴏᴛʜᴇʀ Dᴇʟᴇᴛɪɴɢ Sᴘʀᴇᴇ Iғ I Sᴇᴇ Aɴʏ Mᴏʀᴇ Rɪᴅɪᴄᴜʟᴏᴜs Pᴏsᴛs! I'ᴍ Nᴏᴛ Gᴏɪɴɢ Tᴏ Aʀɢᴜᴇ Wɪᴛʜ Pᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ Wʜᴏ Aʀᴇ Lᴇss Iɴғᴏʀᴍᴇᴅ Tʜᴀɴ I (Oʀ, Mʏ Iᴠʏ Lᴇᴀɢᴜᴇ Eᴅᴜᴄᴀᴛᴇᴅ Pᴀsᴛᴏʀ, Bɪsʜᴏᴘ, Pʀᴏғᴇssᴏʀ, Bɪʙʟɪᴄᴀʟ Sᴄʜᴏʟᴀʀ, Pʜ.D. Mᴇɴᴛᴏʀs Aɴᴅ Fʀɪᴇɴᴅs Wʜᴏ Cᴏᴜʟᴅ Gɪᴠᴇ Yᴏᴜ A Bᴇᴛᴛᴇʀ Aɴᴅ Lᴇss Eᴍᴏᴛɪᴏɴᴀʟʟʏ Dʀɪᴠᴇɴ Dɪssᴇʀᴛᴀᴛɪᴏɴ Tʜᴀɴ I Oɴ Tʜᴇ Mᴀᴛᴛᴇʀ Aᴛ Hᴀɴᴅ) Aʙᴏᴜᴛ Gᴏᴅ AND Tʜᴇ BIBLE. Yᴏᴜ Mᴀʏ Bᴇ Tᴇᴍᴘᴏʀᴀʀɪʟʏ Aʙʟᴇ Tᴏ Hᴏʟʟᴇʀ Lᴏᴜᴅᴇʀ Aɴᴅ Wɪᴛʜ Fᴀʀ Lᴇss Eᴛɪᴏ̨ᴜᴇᴛᴛᴇ Oʀ Cʟᴀss, Bᴜᴛ Tʜᴀᴛ Dᴏᴇsɴ'ᴛ Mᴀᴋᴇ Yᴏᴜʀ Gᴏᴅʟᴇss Sᴇᴘᴀʀᴀᴛɪsᴍ Rɪɢʜᴛ...

Mʏ Gᴏᴅ Is A Gᴏᴅ Oғ LOVE, Aɴᴅ Mᴏsᴛ Oғ Yᴏᴜ Kɴᴏᴡ Aʙᴏᴜᴛ As Mᴜᴄʜ Aʙᴏᴜᴛ Gᴇɴᴜɪɴᴇ Bɪʙʟɪᴄᴀʟ Sᴛᴜᴅʏ (Oʀ, Lᴏᴠᴇ) As Yᴏᴜ Dᴏ Pᴀᴋɪsᴛᴀɴɪ Pᴏʟɪᴛɪᴄs... Tʜᴀᴛ Is Tᴏ Sᴀʏ: EXACTLY NOTHING!

Yᴏᴜ BLACK Cʜʀɪsᴛɪᴀɴs Aʀᴇ Esᴘᴇᴄɪᴀʟʟʏ Eᴍʙᴀʀʀᴀssɪɴɢ - (Aɴᴅ, Tᴏ Bᴇ Cʟᴇᴀʀ, I AM Bᴏᴛʜ Bʟᴀᴄᴋ AND Cʜʀɪsᴛɪᴀɴ) - Bᴇᴄᴀᴜsᴇ Aʟʟ Yᴏᴜ'ʀᴇ Dᴏɪɴɢ Is Nᴀɪᴠᴇʟʏ Aɴᴅ Hᴀᴛᴇғᴜʟʟʏ Sᴘᴇᴡɪɴɢ Wʜᴀᴛ Wʜɪᴛᴇ Mᴀssᴀ Tᴀᴜɢʜᴛ Yᴏᴜʀ Aɴᴄᴇsᴛᴏʀs...NOT WHAT YOU ACTUALLY HAVE STUDIED THROUGH ANY ACCREDITED CLASS AND KNOW TO BE TRUE! Iᴛ's Aᴄᴛᴜᴀʟʟʏ "Sɪᴍᴏɴ Sᴀʏs" Eɴ Mᴀssᴇ! Mᴏɴᴋᴇʏ Sᴇᴇ, Mᴏɴᴋᴇʏ Dᴏ... Wʜʏ Dᴏɴ'ᴛ Yᴏᴜ Asᴋ Tʜᴏsᴇ Sʟᴀᴠᴇs Hᴏᴡ Fᴏʟʟᴏᴡɪɴɢ Tʜᴇ Mɪsɪɴᴛᴇʀᴘʀᴇᴛᴇᴅ Lᴇᴛᴛᴇʀ Oғ Tʜᴇ Lᴀᴡ Wᴏʀᴋᴇᴅ Fᴏʀ Tʜᴇᴍ Iɴsᴛᴇᴀᴅ Oғ Eᴍʙʀᴀᴄɪɴɢ Tʜᴇ Sᴘɪʀɪᴛ Oғ Iᴛ...! Hᴏᴡ Cᴀɴ Yᴏᴜ Cʟᴀɪᴍ Tᴏ Wᴏʀsʜɪᴘ Iɴ Gᴏᴅ's Pʀᴇsᴇɴᴄᴇ; Tᴏ Lᴏᴠᴇ GOD--Wʜᴏ IS LOVE, Bᴜᴛ Lɪᴠᴇ Iɴ Hᴀᴛᴇ? Hᴏᴡ Aʀᴇ Yᴏᴜ Oᴋ Wɪᴛʜ Iɴᴊᴜsᴛɪᴄᴇ Aɴᴅ Cʀᴜᴇʟᴛʏ Sᴏ Lᴏɴɢ As Iᴛ Dᴏᴇsɴ'ᴛ Aғғᴇᴄᴛ YOU?

Hᴇʀᴇ's A Sᴄʀɪᴘᴛᴜʀᴇ Yᴏᴜ Sʜᴏᴜʟᴅ Pʀᴏʙᴀʙʟʏ Cᴏᴍᴍɪᴛ Tᴏ Mᴇᴍᴏʀʏ Wʜɪʟᴇ Yᴏᴜ'ʀᴇ Qᴜᴏᴛɪɴɢ Lᴇᴠɪᴛɪᴄᴜs Aɴᴅ Eᴀᴛɪɴɢ Sʜʀɪᴍᴘ Wʀᴀᴘᴘᴇᴅ Iɴ Bᴀᴄᴏɴ...:

"Mɪᴄᴀʜ 6:8

 

       Hᴇ ʜᴀs ᴛᴏʟᴅ ʏᴏᴜ, O ᴍᴀɴ, ᴡʜᴀᴛ ɪs ɢᴏᴏᴅ; ᴀɴᴅ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴅᴏᴇs ᴛʜᴇ Lᴏʀᴅ ʀᴇᴏ̨ᴜɪʀᴇ ᴏғ ʏᴏᴜ ʙᴜᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴅᴏ JUSTICE, ᴀɴᴅ ᴛᴏ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴋɪɴᴅɴᴇss (KJV = ᴍᴇʀᴄʏ), ᴀɴᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴡᴀʟᴋ HUMBLY ᴡɪᴛʜ ʏᴏᴜʀ Gᴏᴅ?"

Oʀ, Hᴏᴡ Aʙᴏᴜᴛ Tʜɪs Oɴᴇ...?

"Mᴀᴛᴛʜᴇᴡ 22:37-40

       37 Jᴇsᴜs sᴀɪᴅ ᴜɴᴛᴏ ʜɪᴍ, Tʜᴏᴜ sʜᴀʟᴛ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴛʜᴇ Lᴏʀᴅ ᴛʜʏ Gᴏᴅ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴀʟʟ ᴛʜʏ ʜᴇᴀʀᴛ, ᴀɴᴅ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴀʟʟ ᴛʜʏ sᴏᴜʟ, ᴀɴᴅ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴀʟʟ ᴛʜʏ ᴍɪɴᴅ. 38 Tʜɪs ɪs ᴛʜᴇ ғɪʀsᴛ ᴀɴᴅ ɢʀᴇᴀᴛ ᴄᴏᴍᴍᴀɴᴅᴍᴇɴᴛ. 39 Aɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇ sᴇᴄᴏɴᴅ ɪs ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴜɴᴛᴏ ɪᴛ, Tʜᴏᴜ sʜᴀʟᴛ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴛʜʏ ɴᴇɪɢʜʙᴏᴜʀ ᴀs ᴛʜʏsᴇʟғ. 40 Oɴ ᴛʜᴇsᴇ ᴛᴡᴏ ᴄᴏᴍᴍᴀɴᴅᴍᴇɴᴛs ʜᴀɴɢ ᴀʟʟ ᴛʜᴇ ʟᴀᴡ ᴀɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘʀᴏᴘʜᴇᴛs."

Yᴏᴜ AME's Qᴜᴏᴛᴇ Tʜᴀᴛ Oɴᴇ Rʜᴇᴛᴏʀɪᴄᴀʟʟʏ EVERY SUNDAY! (I'ᴠᴇ Pʟᴀʏᴇᴅ Fᴏʀ Eɴᴏᴜɢʜ Oғ Yᴏᴜʀ Cʜᴜʀᴄʜᴇs Tᴏ Kɴᴏᴡ!).

Aɴᴅ, Wʜɪʟᴇ Wᴇ Aʀᴇ Aᴛ Iᴛ, Dᴏɴ'ᴛ Sɪɴɢ Oʀ Pʟᴀʏ Oɴᴇ Sɪɴɢʟᴇ Sᴏɴɢ Wʀɪᴛᴛᴇɴ Oʀ Pᴇʀғᴏʀᴍᴇᴅ Bʏ Aɴᴏᴛʜᴇʀ Qᴜᴇᴇʀ Gᴏsᴘᴇʟ Aʀᴛɪsᴛ EVER (Lɪᴠɪɴɢ Oʀ Dᴇᴀᴅ, GMWA)! OH, WAIT! YOU CAN'T -- BECAUSE YOU'D HAVE ALMOST NOTHING LEFT TO SING (Dᴏɴ'ᴛ Mᴀᴋᴇ Mᴇ Sᴛᴀʀᴛ Nᴀᴍɪɴɢ Yᴏᴜʀ Fᴀᴠᴏʀɪᴛᴇs!)! Iғ Eᴠᴇʀʏ LGBTQIA Pᴇʀsᴏɴ Iɴ Cʜᴜʀᴄʜ (Esᴘᴇᴄɪᴀʟʟʏ Lᴇᴀᴅᴇʀsʜɪᴘ) Wᴀs Oᴜᴛᴛᴇᴅ Aᴛ Oɴᴄᴇ, Yᴏᴜ'ᴅ Pʀᴏʙᴀʙʟʏ Hᴀᴠᴇ A Mᴀss Sᴛʀᴏᴋᴇ! Aɴᴅ, Yᴏᴜ Hᴏᴍᴏᴘʜᴏʙɪᴄ CHURCH Mᴜsɪᴄɪᴀɴs Rᴇᴀʟʟʏ Nᴇᴇᴅ Tᴏ Qᴜɪᴛ Bᴇᴄᴀᴜsᴇ Yᴏᴜ Kɴᴏᴡ Iɴ Yᴏᴜʀ Hᴇᴀʀᴛs Hᴀʟғ Oғ Yᴏᴜʀ Hᴏᴍɪᴇs Aɴᴅ Mᴏsᴛ Oғ Yᴏᴜʀ Mᴇɴᴛᴏʀs Aʀᴇ GAY, GAY, GAY! Sᴏ, Hᴀᴠᴇ Sᴇᴠᴇʀᴀʟ 🛋️🛋️🛋️!

I Dᴏɴ'ᴛ Dᴏ Sᴛᴜᴘɪᴅ, Iɴᴛᴇɴᴛɪᴏɴᴀʟʟʏ Iɢɴᴏʀᴀɴᴛ, Aɴᴅ I Esᴘᴇᴄɪᴀʟʟʏ Dᴏɴ'ᴛ Dᴏ Tʜᴇᴍ Wɪᴛʜ Hᴀᴛᴇ Mɪxᴇᴅ Iɴ, Aɴᴅ Iɴ Tʜᴇ Nᴀᴍᴇ Oғ Mʏ Gᴏᴅ! Pɪᴄᴋ Uᴘ A Bᴏᴏᴋ... Tᴀᴋᴇ A Cʟᴀss! Gᴏᴅ Aɴᴅ Sᴄɪᴇɴᴄᴇ Aʀᴇ NOT Mᴜᴛᴜᴀʟʟʏ Exᴄʟᴜsɪᴠᴇ! LEARN SOMETHING! Aɴᴅ, Wʜɪʟᴇ Yᴏᴜ'ʀᴇ Gɪᴠɪɴɢ Yᴏᴜʀ Hᴇᴀʀᴛ Tᴏ Jᴇsᴜs, BRING YOUR BRAIN TO CHURCH!

Yᴏᴜ Aʀᴇ NOT Fɪᴛ Tᴏ Jᴜᴅɢᴇ ANYBODY! Aɴᴅ, Iғ Yᴏᴜ Dᴏ Tʜɪɴᴋ Oғ Yᴏᴜʀsᴇʟғ "Mᴏʀᴇ Hɪɢʜʟʏ Tʜᴀɴ Yᴏᴜ Oᴜɢʜᴛ", I Pʀᴀʏ Yᴏᴜʀ Hɪᴅᴅᴇɴ Pʟᴀᴄᴇs Gᴇᴛ Exᴘᴏsᴇᴅ, Tᴏᴏ. Mᴀʏʙᴇ Tʜᴇ Oɴʟʏ Wᴀʏ Tᴏ Lᴇᴀʀɴ Hᴏᴡ Tᴏ Lᴏᴠᴇ Lɪᴋᴇ Tʜᴇ Cʜʀɪsᴛ Yᴏᴜ Cʟᴀɪᴍ Tᴏ Sᴇʀᴠᴇ Is Tᴏ Bᴇ Hᴜᴍʙʟᴇᴅ Iɴ PUBLIC, Sᴏ Yᴏᴜ'ʟʟ Sᴇᴇ Tʜᴀᴛ Yᴏᴜ Aʀᴇ Nᴏ Bᴇᴛᴛᴇʀ Tʜᴀɴ Tʜᴏsᴇ Yᴏᴜ Pᴜʙʟɪᴄʟʏ Cᴏɴᴅᴇᴍɴ...

I'VE HAD ENOUGH! I Dᴏɴ'ᴛ Wᴀɴᴛ Tᴏ Hᴇᴀʀ, Sᴇᴇ, Oʀ Dɪsᴄᴜss Tʜɪs Aɴʏ Fᴜʀᴛʜᴇʀ Iɴ Dᴇʙᴀᴛᴇ. Iғ Yᴏᴜ'ʀᴇ Nᴏᴛ Tʀʏɪɴɢ Tᴏ Lᴇᴀʀɴ Aɴᴅ Gʀᴏᴡ Aɴᴅ Wᴀʟᴋ Iɴ Aɢᴀᴘᴇ, Pʟᴇᴀsᴇ Mɪss Mᴇ Wɪᴛʜ Tʜᴇ Fᴏᴏʟɪsʜɴᴇss.

GOD LOVES EVERYBODY! Aɴᴅ, Gᴏᴅ Cᴀɴ Usᴇ ANYBODY!

#GᴇᴛIɴᴛᴏIᴛOʀGᴇᴛOᴠᴇʀIᴛ #LᴏᴠᴇIsAʟʟ

I Lᴏᴠᴇ Yᴏᴜ ALL, Bᴜᴛ Mʏ Bɪʙʟᴇ NEVER Sᴀɪᴅ I Cᴏᴜʟᴅɴ'ᴛ Lᴏᴠᴇ Yᴏᴜ Fʀᴏᴍ A Dɪsᴛᴀɴᴄᴇ. Gᴇᴛ RIGHT Oʀ Gᴇᴛ LEFT! Sʜᴀʟᴏᴍ.

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PS: Iғ Yᴏᴜ Cᴏᴍᴇ Fᴏʀ Mᴇ Wʀᴏɴɢ (Dɪsʀᴇsᴘᴇᴄᴛғᴜʟʟʏ) Oɴ MY Pᴀɢᴇ Aʙᴏᴜᴛ MY Pᴏsᴛ, Yᴏᴜ Wɪʟʟ Gᴇᴛ Dʀᴀɢɢᴇᴅ (Bʏ A Mᴜʟᴛɪᴛᴜᴅᴇ - Sʜᴇ/Mᴇ/Hᴇʀ Is Lᴏᴠᴇᴅ Bʏ A Gʀᴇᴀᴛ Mᴀɴʏ Cʜɪʟᴅʀᴇɴ Wʜᴏ Aʟsᴏ Lᴏᴠᴇ Jᴇsᴜs)!

 

#YᴏᴜᴠᴇBᴇᴇɴWᴀʀɴᴇᴅ

...On Being Single, Christian, And Female Over 30 In 2016...

BEING SINGLE IS HARD

(The Article That Sparked This Conversation)

#THIS Article (Link Above) Is As Real As It Gets...

We Were Made To Be Coupled, And There Isn't A Flaw In Knowing That A Huge Portion Of Your Destiny Is Attached To The Mate That God's Chosen For You In His Perfect Will - And, Even A Permissive Will Partner Might Be More Desirable Than An Eternity Of Singleness Some Days... Yet, For The Single Amongst Us - The "Church" Is Negligent...

Being Single Doesn't Mean You're Not Ready Or Not Whole... Some Of You Couples Just Settled Rather Than Being Alone While We Continue To Ready Ourselves For Someone Who's Face We've Never Seen (And, That's Called #Faith). And--The Not Settling - That Proves Both #SelfLoveMastery, #Wholeness And #Readiness... #RealTalk

#SoWeWorkWhileWeWait
#ProactiveAndOverPrepared

PS: Here Is A Poignant Response To This Article:

 WHAT SHALL WE SAY TO THESE THINGS? THE IMPLICATIONS OF BLACK WOMEN'S SINGLENESS

And, The Tree Was Happy... (The Christ-Like Tree)

I Fɪɴᴅ Tʀᴇᴍᴇɴᴅᴏᴜs Pᴇᴀᴄᴇ, Sᴀᴛɪsғᴀᴄᴛɪᴏɴ Aɴᴅ Jᴏʏ Iɴ Hᴀᴠɪɴɢ Eᴍᴘᴀᴛʜʏ Aɴᴅ Aɢᴀᴘᴇ Fᴏʀ Tʜᴏsᴇ Iɴ Mʏ Lɪғᴇ Wʜᴏ Aʀᴇɴ'ᴛ Nᴇᴄᴇssᴀʀɪʟʏ Wᴏʀᴛʜʏ, Bᴜᴛ Wʜᴏ Hᴀᴠᴇ Fᴏᴜɴᴅ A Pʟᴀᴄᴇ Iɴ Mʏ Hᴇᴀʀᴛ Nᴏɴᴇᴛʜᴇʟᴇss... Iᴛ Dᴏᴇs Sᴏᴍᴇᴛʜɪɴɢ Fᴏʀ Mʏ Sᴏᴜʟ Tᴏ Bᴇ Aʙʟᴇ Tᴏ Sᴇᴇ Tʜᴇ Pᴀɪɴ, Rᴏᴏᴛs Aɴᴅ Iɴᴛᴇɴᴛɪᴏɴs Bᴇɴᴇᴀᴛʜ Bᴇʜᴀᴠɪᴏʀ Tʜᴀᴛ Mɪɢʜᴛ Oᴛʜᴇʀᴡɪsᴇ Cᴀᴜsᴇ Mᴇ Tᴏ Iɴᴛᴇʀɴᴀʟɪᴢᴇ, Pᴜᴛ Uᴘ Wᴀʟʟs, Bᴇᴄᴏᴍᴇ Oғғᴇɴᴅᴇᴅ, Dᴇғᴇɴsɪᴠᴇ Aɴᴅ Wɪᴛʜᴅʀᴀᴡ...

"Tʜᴇ Gɪᴠɪɴɢ Tʀᴇᴇ" Wᴀs Mʏ Fᴀᴠᴏʀɪᴛᴇ Bᴏᴏᴋ Wʜᴇɴ I Wᴀs A Lɪᴛᴛʟᴇ Gɪʀʟ, Aʟᴛʜᴏᴜɢʜ Aᴛ Tʜᴇ Tɪᴍᴇ, Nᴏ Oɴᴇ Uɴᴅᴇʀsᴛᴏᴏᴅ Wʜʏ... Iᴛ Sᴇᴇᴍs Tʜᴀᴛ Nᴏ Mᴀᴛᴛᴇʀ Oᴜʀ Jᴏᴜʀɴᴇʏ, Wᴇ Aʀᴇ Wʜᴏ Wᴇ Aʀᴇ, Aɴᴅ Mʏ Hᴇᴀʀᴛ Hᴀs Fᴏᴜɴᴅ Iᴛ's Wᴀʏ Bᴀᴄᴋ Tᴏ Iᴛ's Rᴏᴏᴛs Aɴᴅ Mʏ Tʀᴜᴛʜ. Tᴏ Tʜᴇ Lɪᴛᴛʟᴇ Gɪʀʟ Wʜᴏ Lᴏᴠᴇᴅ Tʜᴀᴛ Tʀᴇᴇ. Iᴛ Gɪᴠᴇs Mᴇ Pʟᴇᴀsᴜʀᴇ Tᴏ Gɪᴠᴇ Lᴏᴠᴇ Aᴡᴀʏ. Tʜᴀᴛ Bᴏᴏᴋ Vᴀʟɪᴅᴀᴛᴇᴅ Mʏ Sᴏᴜʟ Bᴇғᴏʀᴇ I Wᴀs Eᴠᴇɴ Oʟᴅ Eɴᴏᴜɢʜ Tᴏ Uɴᴅᴇʀsᴛᴀɴᴅ Wʜʏ Oʀ Wʜᴀᴛ Iᴛ Mᴇᴀɴᴛ.

I Lᴏᴠᴇ Bᴇᴄᴀᴜsᴇ I Dᴏ. Nᴏᴛ Bᴇᴄᴀᴜsᴇ Iᴛ Is Mᴇʀɪᴛᴇᴅ Oʀ Rᴇᴄɪᴘʀᴏᴄᴀʟ. Nᴏᴛ Bᴇᴄᴀᴜsᴇ Iᴛ's Wᴇʟʟ Dᴇsᴇʀᴠᴇᴅ. Nᴏᴛ Bᴇᴄᴀᴜsᴇ Tʜᴏsᴇ I Cʜᴏᴏsᴇ Tᴏ Lᴏᴠᴇ Aʟᴡᴀʏs Tʀᴇᴀᴛ Mᴇ Wᴇʟʟ. Lᴏᴠᴇ Sɪᴍᴘʟʏ Is. Wʜᴇɴ I Aᴍ Mʏ Bᴇsᴛ Sᴇʟғ, Iᴛ Is Mʏ Cʜᴏɪᴄᴇ: Mʏ Oɴʟʏ Cʜᴏɪᴄᴇ, Rᴇɢᴀʀᴅʟᴇss Oғ Iᴛ Aʟʟ. Aɴᴅ Eᴠᴇɴ Wʜᴇɴ Iᴛ Hᴜʀᴛs, I Aᴍ Fᴀʀ Bᴇᴛᴛᴇʀ Tʜɪs Wᴀʏ...Lᴇᴀʀɴɪɴɢ Tᴏ Lᴏᴠᴇ, Iɴ Pᴀᴛɪᴇɴᴄᴇ, Aɴᴅ Iɴ Pʀᴀᴄᴛɪᴄᴇ, Wɪᴛʜᴏᴜᴛ Cᴏɴᴅɪᴛɪᴏɴs, Aɴᴅ Wɪʟʟɪɴɢ Tᴏ Gɪᴠᴇ Mʏ Aʟʟ...
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‎#AɴᴅTʜᴇTʀᴇᴇWᴀsHᴀᴘᴘʏ‬‬

Intimacy... (Extension Of "The Manual")

If You Really Want To Impress Me With A Great Date, Invite Me To Pray With You - Genuinely, As The Point And The Purpose Of Our Coming Together... #Presence

If You Want To Wow Me, Up The Ante To WORSHIP... #Intimacy

If You Can Truly Usher Me Into God's Authentic Presence And Connect With Me Profoundly In That Experience, You Just Might Have Me At Hello...

#SpiritualGSpot
#SatisfyMySoul
#HappySonDay

Missing Pieces...

As I Washed My Face Tonight, I Was Momentarily Frozen. I Just Stared And Stared At My Own Reflection...

In That Moment, I Realized That There Used To Be 2 People In The World Who Looked A Great Deal Like Me - Who's Faces Alone Gave Me A True Sense Of Belonging: My Mom And My Sister.

Now, There Is Only One. Perhaps, One Day, None...

There Is Somehow A Loneliness In That Revelation. A Coming To Terms--Sorrowfully... Maybe At Least One Of My Future Babies Will Look Like Me, Too. Not For Vanity -- Just For Continuity. Connection. Sameness. Family...

#MissingPieces
#MissingSisters
#BreastCancer
#Munchie

The Counterfeit: And, How NOT To Settle...

This Is A Word...

***A Good Counterfeit Can Fool The Masses, But It Cannot Fool The Master!***

Sometimes We Ask God To Reveal Someone's Character, Motives Or Heart To Us...Then When He Does, We Almost Don't Want To Believe It...

But, When Someone Shows/Tells You Who They Are, And Especially If God Exposes Their True Nature, BELIEVE IT!

When We Pray This Prayer, We're Not Always Prepared For The Outcome, Especially When The Good Doesn't Outweigh The Bad...

Our Hearts Are Eternal Optimists...Hopeless Romantics - Holding Onto Scraps And The Earliest Presentation Of Good Against All Else When The Ugly Truth Is Revealed... I Am The Queen Of This Misguided, Self Destructive, Loving Dysfunction...Holding Onto The Little Good When The Bad Has Swallowed It Whole Without A Trace...(#ImGrowing)

But, If You Pray This Prayer, And The Red Flags Turn Into Flaming Red Fires, Pick Up The Little Broken Pieces Of Your Heart, Give Them Back To God, And Trust Him That He Has Exposed These Things To Protect You From Harm And Prepare You For Greater...No Matter How Good It Felt Or How Deep The Connection SEEMED...

Letting Go Might Hurt Right Now, But That Pain Is To Save You From Yourself...And From Wasting Your Time And Your Love On Something Unworthy Of You... A Little Heartbreak Now Or A Completely Broken You Later... Choose To Love Yourself First, Let It Go, And Wait On The Right One...

***Remember A Good Counterfeit Can Fool The Masses, But It Cannot Fool The Master!***

So, Trust Him To Write Your Love Story And Get Out Of The Way...

#GodLovesYouMore

#DontSettle

I'm Getting Really Good At Letting Go Of What And Who Is Not Good Or Meant For Me (QUICKLY), Even When My Heart / Soul Doesn't Want To, Or It Glitters Like A Starry Night Despite My Better Judgement... I Can't Hang Onto Anyone Who Diminishes Me, Who's Words And (Mis)Perception Of Me Insult My Soul, Or Anyone Who Has More Future Potential In My Life Than Present Contribution And Value All Dependent Upon Who They May Become When God Has Completed The Work. Not Even For The Prettiest Smile In The World... I Shouldn't Be More Enamored With The Idea And Possibility Of You Than I Am With The Reality Of You... 

(And, I was).

My 2014 Lesson; The Established Rule For Moving Forward: If I Have To Constantly Justify My Interaction With You To Myself, Justify Your Inconsistent Or Selfish Behavior, Justify The Way I Feel When I Leave Your Presence, All While Hoping For Something Better Or Different In The Future From A Place Inside Of You That Is Rarely Exposed And May No Longer Be Authentic (If It Was Ever - You Might Just Be a Good *Ahem* Actor...IJS): That's My Cue. It's Time To Press Delete. Your Brokenness Is Not My Fault Or Responsibility. I'm Not Meant To Walk On Eggshells Or Be Punished, Constantly Corrected, Gaslighted, Manipulated Or Controlled... And Why Be Around Someone When I'm Doing Most Of The Work, They Don't Honor Their Word, AND I Don't Like The Way They Make Me Feel...?

If You're Meant To Be In My Life, God Will Complete The Circle. Until Then, I'm Better Off Taking Care Of Myself And Not Adding To My Soul The Burden Of Internalizing You... Unconditional / Agape Love Does Not Equal Martyrdom. I Can Love You From A Distance. I've Learned To Let Go...

‪#‎IHaveTheGiftOfGoodbye‬

My Favorite LOVE Poems By Saul...

The Wind’s Song 

by

Saul Williams

The square root of kiss is a hum

I hum under my breath when I contemplate the drum

of your heartbeat

and my heart beats for your breath

I revel in the wind for mere glimpses

I’m tornado over you

would you look into the eye of my storm

I whirlwind through your life like breeze

and fill your lungs

as we achieve the second power of a hum

I love…

as instruments come to life

through breath

the wind sends my high notes to indigo communions

with Coltrane’s Favorite Things

…this is my body which is given for you,

this is my blood which is given for you…

my love like the wind, uncaged

blows time into timeless whirlpools

transfiguring fear and all of its subordinates

(possession, jealousy, fear)

into crumbling dried leaves

my love

is the wind’s slave

and, thus, is free

my love

is the wind that is shaped

as it passes through the lips of earthly vessels

becoming words of wisdom

songs of freedom

or simply hot air

my love

is the wind’s song

if it is up to me, I’ll never die.

if it is up to me, I’ll die tomorrow

one thousand times in an hour and live seven minutes later.

if it is up to me, the sun will never cease to shine

and the moon will never cease to glow

and I’ll dance a million tomorrows

in the sun rays of the moon waves

and bathe in the yesterdays of days to come

ignoring all of my afterthoughts

and preconceived notions

if it is up to me, it is up to me

and thus is my love

untainted

eternal

the wind is the moon’s imagination wandering

it seeps through cracks

explores the unknown

and

ripples the grass

my love is my soul’s imagination

how do I love thee?

imagine

- from The Seventh Octave - The Early Writings of Saul Stacey Williams

***AND THIS***

ETERNITY

I closed my eyes
Although I never knew the difference
I stood before a brighter light
At lesser distance
And then, a feeling.
Almost as if nothing were ever
Bound to repeat itself again.
As if history had been as masterfully created
As the great pyramids
And any attempt to reconstruct
Or relive any given moment
Would have to stem from an understanding
Of how the pyramids were built from the top down.
And if one could understand such majesty
One would also understand that kisses hold codes
For unlocking new portals
And that pyramids were first made of flesh
Our bonded souls shifting
Through hidden corrals and passageways
I will find my way to eternity
Within you...

~ Saul Williams ~

Pining For The One...

My heart and mind,
Body and soul
Are united in chorus
Screaming for you:
My Muse...
My Song...
"My angel, my all, my other self;
My immortal beloved"...

Your touch.
Your kiss.
Your body.
Your love...
Your love.
To touch your love.
And call you home.

Please come soon...

~AnOmali™~

Just A Tiny Note In Time...Just In Case...

Every Now And Then You Meet And Have An Organic And Profound Connection With Someone...

You Have A Conversation That, Not Only Changes Your Energy Entirely, Soothes Your Soul, And Challenges Your Jade, But Also Exceeds Your Expectations In EVERY Conceivable Way...

This Is Someone With Whom You Vibe On Every Level Effortlessly...Spiritually, Emotionally, Intellectually; You Share Values, Perspectives, Depth, And Suddenly You Feel Validated Beyond Belief Just As You Are And A Whole Lot Less Alone In The World...

Especially If You're An "AnOmali"...

Yeah...Today Was A Good Day...

*smiles... ... ...*

‪#‎Grateful‬
‪#‎RealConnection‬

And It's Never Enough...

I've infinite options

And none with a clue

They dance for my smiles

The unwitting fools

Because they don't realize

The God awful truth

I'll only resent them

For not being you...

On Invisible Love...

It doesn't matter that I miss you
'Cause you just won't treat me right
Matters not how much I love you
'Cause you put up no real fight
I just wish I had an anchor
To the truth of my heart's plight
So I'd stop wishing you would fix it
Wish you could with all my might...

But you can't.
And you won't.
And I hate
How my heart hopes
For the impossible...

Love Eclipses Truth...

(1st Draft Of The Other Side Of An Internal War)

(The Opponent: Inexplicable LOVE)

How can I be here for you

Knowing you must traverse this all alone?

I pray my love will comfort you

I'll prop you up when all your strength is gone

I'll be your silent cheering squad

I'll hold you from a distance, from afar

And no matter what you choose

I'll lay down my will with all my heart

My love has no agenda here

There is no selfish purpose to pursue

And regardless of the outcome

I want only your best; I believe in you.

So take your space and take your time

I want you whole, I want to see you healed

And if you wonder if someone will hold you down

I love you and I will.

My Synonyms For Love:  Faith, Hope, Vision, Trust, Knowing/ The Known, Selflessness, Humility, Steadfastness

Overlapping...The Truth

(1st Draft Of One Side Of An Internal War)

(Legitimate FEAR: It's Opponent To Follow)

I don't want to be 

Your pain's great escape

A rebound: Or reboot

Your fearful enclave

You can't fall for me

Yet still grieve for her(s)

I'll clear out the path 

I know my own worth

I'm in love with you
It's palpable; real
Maybe you're in love with 
How I make you feel

Inevitably

I'll just end up hurt

I've no time to lose

I can't be deterred

My time is too precious

And you need to heal

My heart is no fodder

For jeopardy's wheel.

I must walk away

From this beautiful dream

With eyes opened wide

To inconsistency

Transference of feelings

I'm no substitute

If it's real, God reveal...

Until then, Love, 

Adieu.

My Synonyms For Fear:  Common Sense, Reality, Grounded-ness, Statistics, Self Preservation, Time Management, Self Control, General Control

"JUST BELIEVE"

(My Latest Finished Musical Creation...Track To Follow...)

(Verse I)

I used to think that I could fly

I even reached up to the sky

Then one by one my dreams they died

There's a thousand reasons why

(Oh) I, I stopped trying

Inside me there's a raging war

'Cause part of my wants so much more

I'm looking for that open door

All I want to do is soar

Outside of these lines

(Pre Chorus)

My fear has kept me bound to indecision

Why am I so afraid of my own vision?

(Chorus I)

What if I

Take the chance

Take the leap

Off this cliff and have faith in this

Dream?

What if we

Just Believe

That we can have more than we perceive?

What if we

Just believe?

Just believe...

(Verse II)

I have nothing left to lose

Found the faith to light the fuse

Gotta try it win or lose

All I have to do is choose

My own destiny

But, there's a voice inside of me

That says it isn't wise to dream

To accept what I can see

'cause what I want will never be

I'm my own enemy...

(Pre Chorus II)

I've been so afraid of this monster we call time

But I Can't live my life with regret

I guess I'll have to try

Better delayed than denied

( Chorus II - Call & Response)

What if I (never had the faith to try)

Take the chance (luck was never on my side)

Take the leap (but now that it's do or die)

Off this cliff and have faith in this (I'll try to have faith in this)

Dream (but what if I fail again)

What if we (I don't have a back-up plan)

Just Believe (I am trying to pretend)

That we can have more than we perceive (can have more than we perceive)

What if we (I'm trying to believe)

Just believe?

Just believe (believe)

(Bridge)

I'll close my eyes 'cause I'm afraid of falling

And what happens if I don't answer this calling

I'll build a bridge out of faith
When the ground gives way under my feet...

(Chorus II)

~AnOmali™~©

God's Imagination...

You think you know what you want...

What you're sure you need...until something...someone comes along and forces you to question everything you've come to believe...challenges everything you think you feel...and shows you that even the best you've experienced is a settlement in comparison to the world of interpersonal wonderment your soul has now been exposed to...could possibly have...should God say so...

It's frightening. Overwhelming. Spending years coming to know yourself and your truth only to be uprooted from it by a chance encounter with someone who you were never even looking for...and an inkling...a gamble...a chance to touch the very nourishment; the complete soul satisfaction that you've longed for...forever...and, in a totally different package and way than you ever dreamed or imagined...

You.

You make me think that everything had purpose. That this improbable trail of impossible tales has led me to the possibility of you. Of Us. Of truth. Truth beyond sight. Truth beyond feeling. Beyond circumstance.

You make me consider a life changing, dream changing, game changing trade and make it feel like the easiest choice in the world... You make me want to hop planes, change lanes, and end up exactly in the same place I was always originally headed on either path, on either side...or both it seems...: Your arms.

You are a truth my heart prays is genuine. Yours is a love my everything craves. You make impossible seem as simple as a choice. To be. To just be. Happy. Safe. Loved.

You terrify me. You satisfy me. You infuriate me. You challenge me. You nourish me. You see me. You might even need me...

You.

You...

What lesson have I stumbled upon in you...

What are you here to teach me?

And will it break my heart...? Me?

Or are you finally the YOU I've waited for my entire life...?

I don't want to miss my blessing looking for my blessing to look like my imagination.

I'd rather my blessing look like my soul's imagination...:

God's imagination.

I'm open...

CLAWS...🐉🐲🐉

I'ᴠᴇ Dᴇᴄɪᴅᴇᴅ Tᴏ Sᴛᴏᴘ Fɪʟɪɴɢ Mʏ Cʟᴀᴡs Aɴᴅ Pᴜᴛ Tʜᴇᴍ Aᴡᴀʏ...(Fᴏʀ Nᴏᴡ)...

Tᴏ Lᴏᴡᴇʀ Mʏ Fᴏʀᴛʀᴇss Wᴀʟʟs A Tɪɴʏ Bɪᴛ 🧱 Wʜɪʟᴇ Gɪᴠɪɴɢ Tʜᴇ Fɪʀᴇ Bʀᴇᴀᴛʜɪɴɢ Dʀᴀɢᴏɴs Tʜᴀᴛ Gᴜᴀʀᴅ Tʜᴇ Wᴀʟʟs Tʜᴇ Aғᴛᴇʀɴᴏᴏɴ Oғғ...🐉🐉🐲🐉

I Mɪɢʜᴛ Eᴠᴇɴ Dɪᴘ Mʏ Tᴏᴇ Iɴ Tʜᴇ Mᴏᴛᴇ Tᴏ Sᴇᴇ Iғ Iᴛ's Sᴀғᴇ Fᴏʀ Cʀᴏssɪɴɢ Sɪɴᴄᴇ I'ᴠᴇ Nᴏ Cᴜʀʀᴇɴᴛ Cᴏɴᴛʀᴏʟ Oᴠᴇʀ Tʜᴇ Dʀᴀᴡʙʀɪᴅɢᴇ Oғ Dᴇғᴇɴsᴇ...🌉

Tʜᴇ Wᴀᴛᴇʀ Is Wɪᴅᴇ...🏞️

#𝑩𝒖𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒑𝒊𝒍𝒍𝒂𝒓 🦋

Invisible... (aka: Reflection)

(1st Draft...In Progress)

I've Fallen In Love

With Your Words From Afar

And Except For Those Words,

I Don't Know Who You Are

Your Brain Conjures Like

My Soul's Mad Wonderland

Like Invasive White Waves,

You Drift Into My Sand

You Force My Walled Heart

To Face Her Primal Fears

To Throw Out The Old Rules

To Stop Counting In Years

Our Likeness, It Seems

Is Impossible, Yet

You Exists Beyond Dreams

And It Tastes Like Kismet

But Alas You Don't Mimic

My Rich Depth Of View

From This Two Sided Mirror

My Soul Longs To Touch You... / 

(Through This Transparent Wall

Only I Am Askew...)

How I Wish You Could See

What I See...

In Your Mirror,

Too...

~ AnOmali ~