AGAIN

(A Work In Progress: For The Demon...)

I gave you my all
When you could not return it
Surrendered my heart
Although you did not earn it
So how could you hurt me again?

I took on your baggage
As though it were my own
And reaped nothing but pain
For the love that I’d sewn
So how could you hurt me again?

Abused by your words
And abused by your hands
Murdered me, in a sense
And yet still, here I stand
So how could you hurt me again?

You punished me for mistakes
Others have made
Your past, the enemy
From which we can’t be saved
So how could you hurt me again?

When your life goes wrong
You persecute me
Send our progress to hell
With no apologies
So how could you hurt me again?

Promised me that this time
You would truly change
You know I’m a diamond
I AM your best friend
So how could you hurt me again?

Put all your needs first
While I sacrificed mine
`Cause you promised me
The moon and stars in due time
So how could you hurt me again?

Begged me not to leave
When my soul walked away
Twisted your string to my heart
And I stayed
So how could you hurt me again?

You crippled my dignity
Buried my pride
And I forgave you
Even after I died
So how could you hurt me again?

You took all I had
Like a thief in the night
All the while telling me
That one day you’d do right
So how could you hurt me again?

Never the priority,
I am never first
Gave you chance after chance
And you just made things worse
So how could you hurt me again?

I cried so many tears
In them you could have drowned
I keep lifting you up
You keep letting me down
So how could you hurt me again?

Asked me for my patience
In spite of your lies
But your heart, it never did
Outgrow your pride
So how could you hurt me again?

Things were rarely my fault
But I took all the blame
Manned up and said sorry
And incurred your shame
So how could you hurt me again?

You begged for the chance
To prove your love was true
Against everything in me
I gave one to you
So how could you hurt me again?

Letting go is sometimes harder
Then holding on
You have made love unsafe
We’re way past right and wrong
So how could you hurt me again?

Banged my head on the brick wall
That you call a heart
When it seemed it was open
You ripped me apart
So how could you hurt me again?

And this is the pattern
On constant repeat
Your fears, your dysfunction
Beat the hell out of me
So how could you hurt me again?

But I wouldn’t be stopped
From believing in you
While you held onto HER
I was your unwitting fool
So how could you hurt me again?

Even through all of this
You asked me to stay
Endured all your sh*t
What a price I have paid
So how could you hurt me again?

Unconditional love
Was the promised reward
But on you I’ve spent more
Than I’ll ever afford
So how could you hurt me again?

Denied and rejected
Then finally scorned
My mind was made up
Although my heart was torn
So how could you hurt me again?

As I finally find courage
To just walk away
And you cry and ask why
All there is left to say is:

How could you hurt me again?


– Copyright 2005 © AnOmali 101 –

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Just sharing my truth at the moment... - 'A'