The Poetic Soul Of ÅnØmålî™...

Just A Few Excerpts From My Life... Here You Will Find My Poetry (Jumbled Thoughts Usually Written In The Heart Of Volatile Emotion I Had No Other Way To Express), A Collab Or Two, Some Of My Favorite Poems/Poets, Original And/Or Favorite Quotes...A Few Blogs/Brief Essays: Free-Style, Words That Move Me; Strike A Chord In Me, And That I Believe Could Or Should Strike Something In Others... Take Me In Slowly...I Swim The Depths Of The Soul...And I Am At Home There... ~A

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...Songstress.Writer.Freedom Fighter.Muse.Rebel.Actress.Prophet.Poet.Musician.Genre Bender.GOD Lover.Dichotomy.Trailblazer.World Changer. Blah, Blah, Blah...

"Art Is The Reason I Get Up In The Morning..."

By The Very Definition Of My Name, I Am Without Rules, Boundaries, Or The Confines Of This World...

"In This World, But Not Of This World"...

Simply Stated: I DON'T DO BOXES!

My Music; My Writing; Is My Soul Poured Onto Canvas. I Am Utterly Naked And Without Pretense Or Shame. To Understand It; To Truly Connect With My Words Is To Know Some Genuine Piece Of Me…Infinitely.

~ÅnØmålî~

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

"CHURCH GIRL"



CHURCH GIRL

(VERSE I)
Dipped in water, preacher's daughter
Read your entire Holy Grail
Started to question all this oppression
Why your religion seems to fail
Tired of lies and all your jaded views
And now that I'm living in truth
I see that truth don't live in you

(CHORUS I)
I've been pimped
I've been sold
I've been bought and I've been told
That if I sang anything else from my heart
I was going to hell

Been Broke down
Mind confused
I've been raped and I've been used
And though I may not look like you
I'm still a church girl

(VERSE II)
Mama said that if a long skirt
Could cover up a black heart
We would all go to Heaven
The Evange-dyke's door key
Was given to me
Long before puberty began
Manipulating my mind for your own gain
And sometimes your temple of God
Is nothing more than a house of pain…
And shame…

(REPEAT CHORUS I)

(CHORUS II)
Slandered and
My gifts sold
But I never was made whole
They didn't just break my spirit
They ripped out my soul

Been jaded
Mind confused
'Til there was nothing left to lose
And though I may not live like you
I'm still a church girl

(BRIDGE)
I used to think that the church
Was a place for the spiritually ill
Since all our souls are weary from this life
A place where hearts could heal
But in my desperation
Church folk never yielded higher ground
It's only when I turned and walked away
True faith in God I found

(CHORUS I)
I've been pimped
I've been sold
I've been bought and I've been told
That if I sang anything else from my heart
I was going to hell

Been Broke down
Mind confused
I've been raped and I've been used
And though I may not look like you
I'm still a church girl

(VAMP OUT)
I still believe in the body
Just don't believe in the building
(Repeat to Fade)


– Copyright 2003 © AnOmali 101 –

Monday, February 19, 2007

The Diary of Anais Nin


"I wanted to run out and kiss her fantastic beauty and say: I will never know again who I am, what I am, what I love and what I want. Your beauty has drowned me, the core of me. You carry away with you a part of me reflected in you. When your beauty struck me, it dissolved me. Deep down, I am not different from you. I dreamed you, I wished for your existence. You are the woman I want to be. I see in you that part of me which is you. I surrender my sincerity because if I love you it means we share the same fantasies, the same madnesses."

- Anaïs Nin -

Damn! I haven't read this quote in a long time, but it struck me with the same intensity as before...amazed at how this moment/feeling/sensation was captured in words...

She Always Speaks MY Mind...

My friend 'Simplicity' on DL and I are ALWAYS on the same page...and when I go to her blogs to see what I am thinking (lol), I am always amazed at how well she phrases my unspoken thoughts...and validates the fact that I am NOT crazy...and I am NOT alone...

Her Words:

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02/15/07 04:41 PM

More of my babble...

"You do yourself and the other person no favors by remaining with someone when you hold on to a part of a person that works for you when the part that doesn't... tortures you."

I have a lot of thoughts running around my head like a futuristic highway. I need a valium or a jack and ginger.

My Thoughts
(I needed to have read this about six months ago - it would have saved me a lot of pain..hell, it would have saved me from my retarded self! lol

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02/15/07 04:11 PM

Is Forever possible?

Forever IS a mighty long time.

If we are forever changing and growing as individuals, why are we expected to remain the same? Or get the infamous: you've changed accusation? I realize some things at one's core should not be expected to change such as morals, principles, etc but even those things can be fluid or not deemed as important as once before.

What happens when one person does all of the changing and the other remain stagnant?

Does forever change because you counted on things to remain the same? Seems to be set up for failure/torture from the start.

I'm still feeling this blog out so to be continued...


(My Response: This blog struck the hell out of me because I realized I have shared these same thoughts on several occassions - but had never given voice to them. Thanks for being my voice...(like on so many other occassions in pages past - lol ;).

Then I remembered the lyrics to a song that I knew well as a child that always somehow made me feel sad (though I didn't understand it at the time). And now, these words make a whole lot more sense to me...(and still sometimes make me sad...):

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HOW DO YOU KEEP THE MUSIC PLAYING?

How do you keep the music playing?
How do you make it last?
How do you keep the song from fading too fast?
How do you lose yourself to someone;
And never lose your way?
How do you not run out of new things to say?
And since we know we're always changing,
How can it be the same?
And tell me how year after year
You're sure your heart will fall apart
Each time you hear his name.

I know the way I feel for you
It's now or never
The more I love the more that I'm afraid
That in your eyes I may not see forever..
Forever...

If we can be the best of lovers
Yet be the best of friends
If we can try with everyday to make it better
As it grows
With any luck, then I suppose
The music never ends...

-Michel Legrand-

Saturday, February 17, 2007

PRIVATE PARTY!!!




MY NEW FAVORITE SONG...

Just listen and read...



PRIVATE PARTY

(Chorus)
I’m having a private party
Ain’t no body here but me,
My angels, and my guitar
Singin’
Baby look how far we’ve come
I’m havin’ a private party
Learning how to love me
Celebrating the woman I’ve become

(Verse I)
I tried to call my mother, but
She didn’t get where I was going
I called my boyfriend and he said
Call me back a little later baby
I hung up the phone, I felt so alone
Started to feel a little pity
That’s when I realized that I
Gotta find the joy inside of me

(Chorus)
I’m having a private party
Ain’t no body here but me,
My angels, and my guitar
Singin’
Baby look how far we’ve come
I’m havin’ a private party
Learning how to love me
Celebrating the woman I’ve become

(Verse II)
I’m gonna take off all my clothes
Look at myself in the mirror
We’re gonna have a conversation
We’re gonna heal the disconnection
I don’t remember when it started
But this is where it’s gonna end
My body is beautiful and sacred
And I’m gonna celebrate it

(Chorus)
I’m having a private party
Ain’t no body here but me,
My angels, and my guitar
Singin’
Baby look how far we’ve come
I’m havin’ a private party
Learning how to love me
Celebrating the woman I’ve become

(Verse III)
All my life (all my life)
I’ve been looking for (I’ve been looking for)
Somebody else (else)
To make me whole (ooo)
But I had to learn the hard way (ooo)
True love began with me (ooo)
This is not ego or vanity (ooo)
I’m just celebrating me

(Chorus)
I’m having a private party
Ain’t no body here but me,
My angels, and my guitar
Singin’
Baby look how far we’ve come
I’m havin’ a private party
Learning how to love me
Celebrating the woman I’ve become

(Verse IV)
Sometimes I’m alone but never lonely
That’s what I’ve come to realize
I’ve learned to love the quiet moments
The Sunday mornings of life
Where I can reach deep down inside
Or out into the universe
I can laugh until I cry
Or I can cry away the hurt

(Chorus)
I’m having a private party
Ain’t no body here but me,
My angels, and my guitar
Singin’
Baby look how far we’ve come
I’m havin’ a private party
Learning how to love me
Celebrating the woman I’ve become

(Bridge)
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday

(Chorus)
I’m having a private party
Ain’t no body here but me,
My angels, and my guitar
Singin’
Baby look how far we’ve come
I’m havin’ a private party
Learning how to love me
Celebrating the woman I’ve become



May you all find the peace and love of self and life that I have suffered, cried, been mistreated, been broken, fought my way, lived my way, delivered myself, been delivered...

Into...

Infinite Blessings And Peace!



NOW SING ALONG WITH ME!!! :)


~A